i'm back.. i've just reached home fr work.. of coz bathed liao.. so refreshed sia.. now is sun 1.43am.. i'm listening to "i'll be missing you".. romantic lehz.. haha.. i dun feel like sleeping now haha.. though past two days quite xiong for me..

fri i woke up as usual early.. practise guitar.. coz e song "call upon" is a new song.. i nv play b4.. i trying to memorise e chords also.. so i took quite long time.. den i went cold storage n NTUC shop shop.. alone.. sometimes i just like to walk around alone.. i trying to find escagots.. i wonder how e taste is like.. but i cannot find.. went back home n take a nap.. though its just an hour.. its just nice.. coz i needed it.. haha.. den its time to prepare refreshment.. my mum helped me.. thanks mum! after everything.. i went qy's house early.. jamie too.. i was going to teach them e POS dance.. haha so funny lo.. u shld see e way they 'dance'..

CG time! praise ok lah.. some chords i played wrongly haha.. confession.. but i like e worship.. wah.. its so tremendous to be lingering in God's presence.. sermon was bout Holy Spirit.. "Holy Spirit moves in the realm of faith".. i like this sentence.. den e members prayed for one another.. n had a great ending worship session.. had fellowship den go for overnight prayer meeting.. wow.. i felt sleepy in e first session.. but after tt very charged up sia.. i began to have urgency again. i felt like having prayer meeting for our cg..

i reached home 6pm.. i slept at 6.30pm.. den i auto woke at 9am.. tt's e time i'm supposed to wake.. already set my alarm.. i just prepared myself first n went for tuition.. haha e kid's mum is fr CHC lo.. so good....... thank God for His wonderful plans.. den i went back home to rest awhile.. my mum quite worried for me.. coz i din rest myself much.. i got to work at 3pm till night later also.. 2pm got to leave house.. i felt bit headache suddenly.. n dun feel like going so early.. feel like going at later time.. jeffery needs me.. but he letting me go at 11plus.. initially i need work till 3am.. xiong rite.. den next day (sun) got to wake at 9am...

starting i was worried if i can pull thru e period.. i prayed n prayed for it.. n e tuition turned out good.. e happiest thing is really e mum is in CHC.. den e cafe today not really tt busy.. so i dun have to tire myself so much.. jeffery let me go off at 11.30pm.. i'm half happy half sad.. haha sad is coz i'm alright fr e headache liao.. so can work.. happy is coz i can rest more at home.. i wasn't really tt tired also while working.. praise God.. really lo.. some things we cannot accept to happen just happen.. really Thank Him.. yes right now.. i'm not tt sleepy either.. haha..

Connection ministry.. i hope tt every meeting with e friends will be a great one.. i felt there's somekind of barrier.. which i know i can break down by grace of God..

today i meet up with xuan, ping.. long time nv see each other.. they cannot recognise me haha.. so funny.. we ate katong laksa.. its a promise tt we made to eat during holiday.. alot things to catch up with them haha.. den we went to parkway walk walk.. ping wan buy things.. suddenly i felt parkway alot things to shop.. at least alot things caught my attention.. bossini clothes are stylo.. i went to gallen sports.. found those single dumb bell.. feel like buying.. can train.. i wan my arm to be firm.. i like sporty type.. haha..

soon ping got to go off.. xuan too.. so i hang around first.. coz i wan see sth also.. at e same time wan wait for kehui.. but she can come out only at 7pm.. i decided to go off first for POS at tp.. but i missed buses.. so might as well wait for her.. we went to tp together.. tt time i bit sleepy liao.. haha.. by e time we reached tp sports hall.. they were debriefing liao haha. ending soon.. but we just stayed around n helped think e cheer.. but haha brain dead.. i saw e moon.. brightly hanging on e black sky.. actually i felt bit tired tt time.. haha..but ok lah.. had fun together also..

suddenly my mum rose alot suspicions on me tt i'm having a bf.. so she said alot against me.. n tt irritated me.. my attitude towards her not tt good.. i got to pray more bout this.. its just suddenly she raised this topic again.. haha

sat i went to bedok reservoir n jog.. jogged n walked e whole reservoir.. 4.3km.. very shiok sia.. e sweating.. felt so healthy.. haha.. there's pp fishing n dragon boat-ing.. e way they propelled e boat forward with e same side of stroke was so 'forceful'.. very ping ming..after jogging.. i just sat on a bench.. stared out into e reservoir n e sunset.. e rays within e clouds streaking out.. beautiful..

ytd had usher support at 12.15pm.. i took train.. met joy.. haha.. she's late.. she's going for svc 5.. so she taking cab down to church when reached outram station.. i went with her.. so i reached church very early lo.. went to attribute walk walk haha.. soon jamie came n we went to report liao.. e bulletins all done le.. i'm serving zone A3.. i bit slow in confirming e status.. very messy.. but ok lah e pp quite corperative.. b4 worship all is filled up.. thank God got hwee hoon helping me.. sermon is bout keeping our dreams.. yes i tink fear n fatigue is e major dream-robber..

after svc joined cg makan.. dunno why.. i just feel so happy.. derek joined us too! he talked alot sia.. haha.. aiyo dunno who wan join extreme adventure.. me, qy working at 8pm.. rest of them went bugis too.. they wanted cut hair.. but in e end e salon is closed.. haha.. they went to my workplace n sit sit.. kehui, jamie collected their pay.. see my cg.. so happy haha.. i tink they're uncomfortable in e place haha..

business wasn't tt busy.. can cope.. most customers are friendly one.. but mostly guys one.. most those pretty gals very attitude one.. haiyo.. sad case.. we closed at 1am.. i finished my stuffs at bout 2 plus.. we went to eat bak cho mee.. haha.. fattening sia.. slept at 4am.. everytime after working.. i always felt satisfaction one.. haha.. maybe coz i'm earning pay haha.. n also coz learning to cope with stress there haha.. FnB line very challenging one haha..

just came back fr sentosa outing.. quality time together.. very fun.. we meeting 12.30pm at tamp ctrl de.. but we set off only bout 1pm.. kehui cute lo.. bought peel fresh liao yet dun wan drink.. haha.. me, qy enjoying ourselves with e drink.. coz its cold.. benny's still at serangoon when we reached harbourfront.. so we ate bit at e hawker.. bought bit of things to eat at sentosa.. soon benny reached n we board e bus.. headed to palawan beach..

e weather was hot.. others put on sunblock.. but me n qy extra.. put sun-tan.. i wan tanning haha.. we played volleyball.. coz alot pp dunno how to play.. so we changed to captain's ball.. its fun.. den we took a break to quench our thirst.. i felt hot.. n i went to wet myself abit.. others followed me.. i just dipped myself into e water.. den i swam around.. haha.. love swimming.. me, cy swam to e platform in e middle of sea.. we lay there to sun tan.. n sing songs.. whoa.. so comfortable.. with e sea breeze..

swam back again to meet others.. sisters stayed to e seaside.. brothers playing soccer.. we celebrated hock wee's birthday.. lent matchsticks fr ang moh.. at first had difficulties in lighting up.. coz e wind was big.. but we managed to haha.. e cake was cheap n nice anyway haha.. benny went off earlier coz meeting kai xin.. dj finally arrived.. we took alot pic sia.. some pic so funny.. our actions so big.. haha but very fun fun fun!! haha.. really laugh n crap n shout n cheer.. we swam around again.. coz alot pp dunno how to swim.. but can see they're willing to learn..

qy was quite afraid.. so she held on me while i swim.. to a platform in e middle of e sea.. starting i dun haf much confident.. but we did it!! others din make it.. jamie almost drowned.. lucky got lifeguard help.. zhi jian's, kehui's spec was lost.. see siang too.. he even lost one of e slippers.. e lifeguard kept helping to help.. xin ku le.. but still cannot find..

qy learnt to swim by herself to e platform.. of coz there're us around her in case.. she did it.. she swam in those deep sea.. cannot touch e ground.. we helped jen also. she used e volleyball as a float.. while kicking her legs.. she swam to e platform too.. with us around.. n safely back.. she did it too.. den we played captain ball in e sea.. whoa tt's difficult coz very hard to walk in e sea.. plus need to swim at times.. but very cool.. some pp even stopped to watch us.. haha.. we screamed n made alot noise haha.. funny lah.. i enjoyed myself!

den go bathed liao.. i'm e last one to enter bathroom but i was fast i guess.. we shared n passed around e shampoo n body wash haha.. so on.. unity ba haha.. good good.. E307 rox! meet up with e brothers n went back mainland.. tt time already 8pm.. ate at hawker.. starting dunno wad to eat coz alot stalls closed.. i ate nasi briyani which is not nice.. den we went harbourfront shopping centre to walk walk.. meet up with des too.. hw treated rumba drink for all e sisters.. thanks..

got bit tired.. fr all those swimming.. but when see e photos.. we just laughed n laughed.. so is charged up again.. haha.. yes i truly enjoyed myself today!!!! :)

our 1st day of live recording.. we went thru set 2 twice.. e song composed by Pastor Sun was anointed lo.. power.. Pastor Phil's son, Bro Daniel, was our sound producer.. with his wife.. he very expert lo.. e way i see him conduct things.. very confident.. our musicians n singers have been practising hard.. their voices n music was superb.. some guitar tune played by Bro David was so melodious.. last song was e crossing over.. strikeforce participated in e beating of strums.. cool.. des was e conductor.. we sang mostly e worship songs.. e 2nd recording day will be mostly praise songs..

anyway i went to cut hair.. its very comfortable when they wash n cut.. as if i just dozed off.. haha.. when i woke.. wow diff hair.. i must explore on how to style my own haha.. coz i dun really know how..

actually alot thing happened haha.. interesting..........

yesterday was e live recording rehearsal.. haha managed to book S2 seats for cg.. hope today can get e same seats.. we practised alot of songs.. i like 'One' e most! 'high' liao~ there're few new songs which we've learnt.. doing a recording isn't easy.. alot areas have to be taken into consideration.. whoa.. i'm glad tt i'm participating this major event aas a church :) yes its my church!

today will be first day of actual live recording.. haha.. anyone will be funky looking.. anyway will be going church early coz of POS.. yes i believe i'll not be easily tire out..

must pray more for jen.. tt she can enter TP.. she will receive e letter fr TP before april.. will get into business..

oh my.. my poor thumb.. its half-cooked.. yes tt's right.. can see e colour diff with my other fingers.. i was working last night.. in e process of making hot cafe latte.. was foaming e milk.. i was supposed to turn e machine off when e foam is rising up.. or it will overflow.. its hot.. i turned.. but in e opp direction.. meaning i was causing e foam to rise faster.. i was ignorant at first.. one thing is i'm not used to turning clockwise.. when i knew i turned wrongly.. too late liao.. e hot milk overflow n scalded my thumb.. i was holding e container with e milk..

it just happened so fast.. haha.. my thumb starting was okok.. e pain came after few mins.. it was killing me.. i quickly ran it under water.. i felt so much better.. after e rising.. e pain just came back.. tt time was quite busy.. alot orders.. jeff helping me.. so i just ren.. continue do my work.. at times bo bian got to handle some hot stuff.. ren.. haha.. at times i would run it under water or to blow it.. but now not too bad..

yesterday only me, jamie, kehui working.. plus e boss.. i learnt quite no. of things haha.. happy.. time passes super fast after 9pm.. i worked 10hrs yesterday.. seems long.. but den i felt its just like few hours.. we bought pizza bar n milk at nearby 7-11.. ate in e cab.. so shuang.. haha..

yeah today is e rehearsal.. i'm so happy n excited.. my class got bbq.. i cannot go.. but if they staying overnight, i'll join them after e rehearsal.. haha.. i'm playing online pool now.. so fun.. i'm improving liao :)

God is reminding me not to forget to do e work for Him though i'm working now.. i felt its strongly emphasized in integrating pp in my cg.. not forgetting building up better n stronger communication n relationship in cg.. with new friends, younger n older members.. n also to our leader.. now tt my work is always at night.. i shld do sth in e daytime.. i dun wan to keep resting, sleeping, watching tv, play com at home.. i wan do sth tt is more meaningful.. yeah live recording, overnight prayer meeting, sentosa outing.. i'm so excited for it.. oh ya.. not forgetting today's ping's birthday~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY! cannot help celebrate.. cannot attend tml bbq also.. aiyo.. i tink i shld take up some time to meet up my class pp too :) i dun wan to neglect them.. nor my old friends.. haha..

anyway i wan to be stronger n firmer in God.. i'm learning to be patient.. me quite impatient.. yes i wanna change.. there's some things tt have been whirling my mind.. i tink i shldn't conc on this mindset.. so it'll get worsen.. haha its just tt i very easy irritated by it haha.. hmm.. nvm i'll pray for it.. Holy Spirit works in us..

sometimes i feel tt our decision is always relied on e decision made by friends around us.. yes i understand we wan pp's company.. but i tink shld try decisions ourselves rather than always following wad ur friend had chosen.. make a say too.. dun wait for pp to say.. be firm too.. while knowing e purpose n reason of our stand.. of coz of good purposesn reasons.. :)

sat.. meeting jason at first.. but he lost his wallet den need to report.. so not meeting.. very last min.. i was already on bus 72 when i got to know it.. time was 4pm plus.. meeting jamie 7pm at small mac.. oh wad i am going to do.. haha.. heading nowhere.. thought of going yio chu kang den back to tamp.. but seems stupid.. i alighted at hougang n took 72 again back to tamp.. talking to wei lin on e phone.. lucky sia.. if not i'll be so bored.. den my hp auto switched off.. totally no batt.. i din charge also.. but it was nearing 7pm.. so its ok.. den went to meet jamie.. took us 23 to bugis.. i really dozed off in e journey though alot commotion..

WORk.. sat.. alot pp.. cy working also.. quite good.. 3 of us helped each other.. when see each other, would feel so warmth one.. haha.. business was good.. jeff's wife,yoko, working.. she's super patient.. a group of 12 pp went off w/o paying $80 bill.. wah.. but jeff decide to claim fr tips.. he increased our pay to $6/hr.. but only for tt day.. he bit regret coz he forgot bout e $80 loss.. but he giving us anyway coz he dun wan take back his word.. good eh? e cafe closed at 3am.. did closing n finished up everything at nearly 4am.. haha i tink we talked nearly half an hour with e boss n bosslady.. friendly talk lah.. den took cab home.. reached home at 5am.. quite extreme haha.. pray pray liao den go sleep.. Zzz

next day (sun) woke at 10am.. took svc 6 first bus.. thought i cannot make it.. my hp sot sot.. heartache.. at audi cannot find front seat.. wan support wei lin de.. but we sitting at S4/S5.. so far.. wow svc was good.. msg impacted alot pp :) great praise n worship too! after tt ate at coffeeshop.. den go bugis.. we went to our working place.. qy, kehui workin there liaoz.. working immediately haha..

actually e boss, bosslady were good pp.. e cafe i working is not a complicated place though it may seem to be.. trust me.. i know one.. just tt got pp smoke.. but ur job is not to smoke or drink with them mah.. just to serve them drinks, food.. our schedule is also wad we tell them one haha! plus its working at night.. time passes fast one.. daytime wun clash with much things.. pay was okok too.. wad more can i ask? it may seems straining coz working till late night.. but ok lo.. haha.. anyway can jian fei one.. seldom got time to sit.. can train arm power also haha.. now e workers they've had.. are just few of us.. me, joy, cy, jamie, qian yu, kehui, plus elis.. haha good leh together.. will feel sense of intimacy n comfort one.. :)

WoOh.. my long yesterday.. i can only describe in one word.. FUN.. went TP for POS with city harvesters.. waited very long time.. supposedly meet 10am.. but starts at 11.15am.. wah.. haha.. but i xi guan le.. felt so happy to see familiar n new faces.. laughed alot with them.. we had ice-breakers.. knew some new pp.. Cassandra came!! finally can find one who's in AS sch.. we contributed powerful keywords for our cheer.. i do hope qy joining POS with us.. really do hope.. all if us went lunch at mensa.. den some of us went off to meet pp for bowling liao.. thought we're a latest.. turned out we're e earliest.. met zhi wei, chuok yew on e way.. we started our game first.. e first game is always warm-up exercise for us.. keep going long gou.. we had problem in keying in our names.. soon young yap, jen, kehui came.. they waited for us to finish our first game.. den we combined for sec game..

5 gals 5 guys.. gang gang hao..i did better for sec game.. i striked once!! haha.. tt dj quite good lo.. yy n chuok yew were good too.. e way they threw e way not like us one.. theirs is so pro.. yy strike no. of times.. his ball very forceful.. haha tt zhi wei dunno how to play.. qy's ball very cute.. bang on e ground b4 it rolls.. den always swirl to right or left.. seldom straight in centre.. tt jamie even cute lo.. first game she did well.. sec game dunno wad happen.. kosong kosong... den score is 3 all e time.. her final score is 10 haha!! funny lo.. kehui, jen not bad one.. jen always wan compete with pp one aiyo.. haha.. relax.. tt qy keep playing thumb game with me.. so childish leh.. we play until quite violent.. haha yeah its so fun anyway.. anyway one of our bowling lane kana hang two times lehz..

dj, qy, chuok yew went off first.. rest of us went makan at BK at downtown.. very full.. all of us cannot finish e food... jen den ta bao rest of fries.. its alot u see.. she wan feed brand boy.. so she, yy went off also.. rest of us went pasir ris beach.. we went to those swamp area.. low-tide.. alot things can be seen.. i went quite into e place.. i wan explore sia.. e sand are soft.. so must be careful.. found coconut.. we shook them.. can hear e water inside.. i wrote n drew things on e sand also.. if e water is not littered so much.. it would be so fantastic.. i went deeper down.. saw alot small holes.. we caught small crabs.. i managed to catch some.. we put them into a container.. suddenly a phonecall came to ask if can work now.. i ok lo.. try try.. jamie too.. tt time was already 6 or 7 plus le.. sky darkened.. waves like coming back.. so we went back shore.. zj released those crabs..

so ya me, jamie on e way to work.. e envt n things there very unique.. separated into two places.. one is for cigar.. e other is not.. got cold sides n hot sides.. jeff asked one of us to help joel.. i went lo.. doing hotsides.. he's a nice n good-looking guy.. he taught me alot of things haha.. pp started coming in.. i helped take order n served n prepare food.. settle bills.. seems like alot things.. but interesting leh.. learnt things.. but i bit blur bout some menu stuffs.. Praise God! joel told me to keep it up n i did a gd job.. n tt i learn things fast n knows how to take initiatives.. Thanks! i just wan to glorify God! :) i wan to be effective helper..there's still alot things i need to learn :) joel's only 17.. kan bu chu.. so mature lo.. time passed very very quickly..preparing for closing.. wash this n tt.. pack up.. i ended work at 1 plus am.. got cab home.. free transport.. i reached my house there at nearly 2am.. but i went to cy's house to pass her book.. its late.. but thank God i'm not really tt tired yet.. talked with her awhile n went home.. felt so refreshed after hot bath.. slept at 3 plus am.. haha had a nice sleep.. but e thing is i was super hungry.. but aiya sleep can liao haha..

ya i've found a job lo.. better than nth :) need some income haha

oh yeah.. its 3 days after my baptism.. i dun really know how to describe my feelings now.. haha.. but of coz e feelings are good.. now that i've made a commitment to follow Jesus for rest of my life.. during worship.. its like really really wan to lift my whole heart.. being more serious n focused.. would really wan to give Him all e glory.. as wad stated in e Bible Jas 4 ' Draw near to God and He shall draw near to you'.. His presence is even stronger now.. now is that in every little thing.. i just feel like praying and praying.. a Prayer is a power.. out of abundance of e heart, e mouth speaks.. i wan to share verses.. my experiences.. having greater love for guitar also.. Thank God for everything.. i do have fears in me when considering e baptism.. everyhing just happen in a wink of an eye.. but benny told me tt as long as I'm doing sth tt is in e will of God.. i dun haf to worry or fear bout e later chap of my life.. responsibility of coz will grow.. but we're not just alone to shoulder it.. so i just go ahead.. i know i will regret if i missed e baptism.. so i just go for it.. rejoicing tt i've been risen up with Jesus.. being a new creation.. my old man has died.. i'm Nicole.. it means victory of the people! qing tuo tuo zhi jiao! :)

anyway tml i'm going to be water baptised! i'm excited n nervous at e same time.. its e one n only.. major.. significant.. n a new life for me! it may seems a simple thing of submerging into e water n den just come out.. but u have to understand wad it meant.. it meant more than a thousand words.. i still cannot believe tt it's just tml! it just started fr e conversation with my mum one morning.. suddenly e idea of water baptism was planted into my mind.. i felt e urge to ask her.. but i fear of her response.. in e end i asked.. she din really object which surprised me.. eventually i asked my father n he allowed me! God is truly a good God :)

i just wan to backtrack fr e first day i stepped into church haha.. paiseh lah bear with me haha

in e first place, i dunno why i actually agreed to come.. coz i quite anti one.. haha.. wei lin brought me.. around sep holiday 2002.. in sec 3.. i was shocked when i saw church building.. magnificent.. even shocked when stepped into e audi at B4.. underground.. so modern n high tech.. i did feel weird coz i'm not a christian.. i sat at floor area.. Benny sat beside me.. she's friendly n talked to me alot.. i've got alot question marks when saw benny so 'high'.. jumping here n there haha.. i just clapped along with them.. during worship i dunno why i raised my hands.. maybe i felt touched.. during preaching of word.. i forgot who's e preacher.. but i was interested it.. but i din response to altar call.. after tt i tink we went to eat? i cannot remember much.. i knew tt at tamp interchange.. i told wei lin they all tt it was fun n i would come next week..

i did.. haha.. this time sitting at S2.. Vivien told me tt when we sing e songs.. we'll feel very happy.. tt time i was thinking: huh??! are u crazy?! got meh.. haha but now i'm truly happy in singing.. i really xia dao when wei lin knelt down..... i did tink of: OMG.. is she possessed?.. they were speaking in a language i do not understand.. of course i even blur liao.. so scary like tt.. but den Pastor Tan's preaching impacted me.. very meaningful de.. got altarcall.. i din wan to response.. coz vivien talked to me alot.. n i went for it.. but i wasn't really tt serious..

i tink i stopped going after e 2nd svc.. i told wei lin i believe only in my own religion..soka.. n i very zhong xin.. haha.. now when i tink of it.. i felt so funny.. heard tt she very 'gek sim'.. den i lost my beloved photo album.. i brought to bedok reservoir.. i realised it was lost only when i reached home.. so i dunno where i dropped.. i was super super sad.. coz all my favourite photos are in there.. den i told wei lin tt if God helped me find e photo album, den i'll go back... haha! childish leh! tt time she still got reach out to me..

it was after few months when i found it.. i almost forgot bout e album.. n yet i found it! its at 7-11 store near my house.. i was buying sth with christine.. den she pointed out sth is very familiar.. at e glass drawer at cashier there.. i saw it.. my photo album.. i cannot believe it lo.. but it's really there.. e cashier said it has been here for long time.. ya lo.. tt time i remember e things i said to wei lin.. n bcoz of e album.. i went back to church.. tt time i felt touched.. n i came for rest of svc.. not forgetting cg too.. its at vivien's house.. amk.. she's my previous cellgroup leader.. my first cg meeting was still during sch term.. i know benny M was still in NYJC coz he's wearing e uniform.. tt time i think got somebody's birthday which i forgot who liao.. i felt warmth in e cg.. i like e pp there also haha.. eventually i got interested in guitar.. it just catches my attention.. i picked up learning guitar fr Bob n James.. but play for fun one.. NV thought of being an guitarist...

coz i very zhong shi in studies.. i went for svc4 instead of svc5.. with kehui.. i bit anit-social also lah haha.. den can go home study.. meanwhile still got go cg.. but always leave early coz need to work.. i bought a guitar thru kwan yu.. i was very happy.. practised n practised.. not easy.. den started playing songs.. i always dunno how to play one.. need Bob around.. slowly.. i started joining back to svc 5.. i dunno why also.. felt so fresh again.. adek talked to me alot.. tt's when i got to know jollie n lihui more.. all e way.. i attended svc n cg :)

den N127 (my previous cg) multiplied.. i was posted to E307.. i was quite sad to leave e pp who remained in N127.. Benny was our newly cgl.. (to be continued) :)

--> we used joy's house for cg.. tt time i wasn't close to jen.. i was still learning guitar n gradually i tried my first praise in cg.. "let everything that has breath".. of coz nervous.. i was very focused on e chords.. haha.. not e song.. but now its diff.. thru out my Christian life.. there are ups n downs.. sometimes i thought of giving up coz i was tired.. facing things which i've nv faced b4.. a few times i really attitute problem to e pp around me.. but i managed to hold on to God.. I prayed n read e bible.. In every valley, there's a light.. everytime i crossed e barriers, i felt myself even stronger.. glad tt i've pulled thru.. of coz its under God's grace..

yes its not easy.. there's alot times i'm unstable.. but must really jian chi dao di.. champions are pp who nv quits.. so dun quit! we learn things thru experiences! slowly i officially playing guitar for cg.. tt time me, cy, wei lin, joy always together.. coz in same class n cg.. fasting n own prayer meeting in sch.. wei lin, joy, jun hao were helpers in e cg.. jh brought revival into our cg.. but he backslided.. if not for him.. we wouldn't have multiplied.. my cg grew in numbers n we multiplied bout feb 2004.. E307 n N248.. i cried lo.. cannot bear to separate.. joy went to N248.. me, wei lin, cy stayed in E307..

so everything started over again.. as a small cg.. grow n grow.. den i became more stable.. went for e church intermediate guitar course which benefited me alot.. i've learnt alot.. thanks to Bro James n my fellow mates.. i joined POS, Word power for Emerge.. i remembered tt time we had to wake up at 5 plus to go to church for youth conference.. it rocks! beforehand we practised alot for POS.. representing tp.. its fun n got to know alot pp.. unity is there.. its a competition among other schools.. sth bout cheers n dance.. we was so excited upon going to perform.. though its just 4mins on stage.. it was awesome.. we gave our very best.. guess wad? we got first! we received $800 mache voucher.. this 3-days conference sparked off in every youth's heart.. this yr's coming also liao :)

oh ya.. den wad? actaully many other things happened n it would be so long if i were to type everything down.. yes den sch reopened.. i bit lost focus.. i began to treat things like prayer lightly.. but now its diff.. picked myself up.. pray though sometimes dun feel like praying.. i joined usher ministry also.. yeah.. build my confidence.. finally i got my CHC membership card too haha.. time flies.. den now i've been in usher for 6 mths liao.. my section unity brought closer due to no. of times of ushering in indoor.. tough.. but fruitful!

from e asking my mum bout baptism.. to my father's consent.. went for baptism class.. got e form fr benny.. my father signed e form.. wrote my baptism name.. handed up e form.. prayed n prayed bout it.. bought white shirt.. prepare clothes.. cg pp went to witness.. me in whole white.. got my sticker.. Nicole Chong Seow Li.. tt's me.. took pic.. baptism svc started.. praise n worship.. declaration.. svc 4 pp.. svc 6 pp.. me.. one by one.. down e pool.. towards Pastor Derek.. my turn.. Pastor greeted me.. "Hi Nicole".. i smiled.. laid hands on me.. eyes closed.. head into e water.. out of e water.. refreshed.. bit blur blur.. wei lin gave towel.. hugs.. blow candle.. eat salt.. eat apple.. took pic.. happy.. present.. its my 'birthday'.. 10/4/2005.. new creation.. new me.. Nicole Chong Seow Li :)

well i've just woke up not long.. slept at 6 plus am..i went overnight prayer meeting in church till 4.30am.. before e pm we had cg.. talked bout impt of Word of God.. truly it is e only nourishment for us.. we dun live by bread alone, we live by every single word out of e living God.. God speaks to us diff way.. maybe thru bible, friends, leaders, circumstances etc.. we need to catch wad e Lord is trying to tell us.. He has a word for us everyday..

Rom 10:17 "So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God'

I guess each n every member of E307 shld try to put verses in our conversation.. for out of confession of e heart, e mouth speaks..

Emerge is coming.. i'm excited for it.. my cg going for talentine? haha really must know wad will be e item.. i thank God for putting qian yu in my cg.. she dares to speaks wad's on her mind.. nv being afraid.. she sees e need to tell e whole cg bout helping out in washing e plates etc.. actually i din really notice bout this.. but i do hope other pp will help too.. i know kehui has been helping me alot.. she's my backstage support.. Thanks girl! at e same time i will take note more of e tidiness of e place..

after tt me, wei lin, cy, benny, qy, roy went for PM.. funny leh roy came haha.. but i tink he did experience sth fr it :) benny n roy went off at 1am while others stayed.. yup.. we're praying even stronger.. good thing qy came.. e PM was powerful.. we prayed n prayed.. e presence n anointing was so strong tt we fell on our knees.. i went to be prayed by pastor coz i feel i need fresh anointing fr e Holy Spirit.. i saw white light beneath e calm sea.. there's a boat with a man..

though it was like praying under long long hours.. we're not really tired.. its e power ba.. when e PM ended.. i gave qy a big hug.. meanwhile i just feel like crying.. she told me e PM was very good.. i could see she's quite impacted.. i felt so touched also.. den we made our way to e shuttle buses which we couldn't find in e first place.. haha.. me n wei lin talked all e way thruout e journey while others slept in e bus.. tink we're e only survivor? haha.. it's until when we're reaching, den i felt like sleeping.. walked home.. at first wanted to buy sth to fill our stomach.. but bit feel like vomiting.. but lucky i din throw out.. nearly.. haha.. reached home changed clothes n sleep liao.. coz 3.45pm meeting xiao yu for svc.. so got to rest.. haha.. actually i can camp in church liao haha.. how i wish i could.. woah! :)

yesterday went suntec to watch Miss Congen...with quite alot pp.. haha roy's gf not coming with us which i thought she will.. zhi wei din join us coz need to work.. starting i dunno wad e movie is all bout.. falling asleep.. den it started to get funny.. e ending quite touching.. den went to play bit arcade.. haha.. i went to visit Kenny Rogers at suntec.. purpose is to find sharon.. she asked me if wan go back there work.. but hor.. suntec lehz.. so far.. $4 per hour also.. quite little lehz.. if minus e transportation.. haha dunno left wad.. if really bo bian, den i'll go back there

den today i went for e NTI thing.. e manager talked to us bout e plan.. yes its attracting.. but hor i've got mixed feelings.. i dun feel comfortable.. i dunno where's e problem.. but at e same time i feel like trying or i'll nv know wad it would be like..its super easy money.. easy until i feel ridiculous.. maybe i'll just try.. at e same time take up another job.. i need to earn for myself.. i dun wish to keep getting fr parents.. i wan to give them some money also.. if i take on KR.. maybe i'll still work during sch term.. hmm see how haha.. but i really need to work haha... no work no income... no income no new clothes... haha

i'll go watch tv now.. ghost show? i suppose so.. :)yeah!

haha lazy to blog for past 2 days.. i got alot things to say one.. but suddenly dunno wad to say also.. haha.. mon i went to des house.. teach clara guitar.. jas, wei lin came along too.. actually slack alot haha.. got i hope she got learn sth out of it.. i din teach much also.. wad i can say is to practise more in her own time.. esp barred chords.. its not easy.. fingers sure pain one.. e tips will po bi.. soon it will harden haha.. i took long time to play barred chords properly.. haha

watched easter drama on net.. i like veroy's rap.. his voice suits.. des bought study bible.. actually i did consider buying last sun.. it seems good.. got describe biblical character one.. des's bro seemed diff sia.. grown up liao haha.. den his ah ma very friendly.. his jay's album all placed neatly on e table.. really jay's fan.. if u ask him which jay;'s song is nice.. he'll just tell u ALL songs are nice.. diao~ haha not bad lah.. i like wo de di pan.. i cannot catch up e lyrics lo..

den we went starbucks.. starting i dun wan go one haha.. coz i din bring any money.. go there only tempt myself haha.. but they managed to persuade me.. n i went lo haha.. haha starting two big guys sharing a sofa.. e way they sat was so gao xiao.. i din buy anything.. but did sip bit fr theirs.. NICE! YuMmY! we talk talk there.. great time there.. i seldom got to spend time with them.. i tink it was great as we shared our things.. well i hope jas is able to go for baptism this sun :)

i'm going for it.. i tink i shld just step out in faith.. i know i shld go for it.. i'll feel sth is missing if i miss this round of baptism.. my father had signed e form.. n i've given myself a baptism name: Nicole.. it means victory of the people.. haha but i felt bit weird if pp were to call me by tt name.. pp who already know me would feel weird also.. haha well e world is ever-changing.. adapt to it can liao :) starting jas asked me to put ru hua... hahaha.........

we left at 8 plus.. me, wei lin walked home.. actaully wanted rush back watch 9pm show.. but haha forget it.. we went to talk also.. at void deck.. till 10 plus.. her younger bro cute lo.. keep calling.. wan to claim 10cents fr her somemore.... aiyo.. haha.. cute sia..

yesterday ar.. i practically spent most of my time fixing my jigsaw.. while watching huan zhu vcd.. but i meet benny in e afternoon at suntec to hand up e baptism form.. starting got meet pp after tt.. but cancelled.. i took bus 10 home.. saw alot things during e journey.. by pass nicoll highway.. quite alot of things were done to fix e road..it's very near golden mile.. got resident flat nearby too.. i wonder how it was like when e highway collapsed.. by pass alot places which fascinates me.. there's this shophouse tt is so old tt algae grew all over e place.. bit kong bu n dark.. in e past pp lived in there before.. interesting ha.. some sec schools are very old also.. like broadrick sec.. but it gave me a warmth feeling instead.. sometimes old is good.. haha.. suddenly alot TKGS pp boarded e bus.. they've just ended sch.. saw alot outside walking around with their friends.. ya must truly enjoy sec sch life.. its great! :)

look n look until i'm felt eyes heavy.. n i slept.. when i opened my eyes, e bus had just reached interchange.. luckily i opened earlier.. haha if not i'll stuck in e bus.. double-decker u see.. wanted to buy bubbletea but i lazy.. went home ncontinued e jigsaw n vcd.. i completed!! :)

oh ya today going watch movie haha... happy sia.......... can enjoy...

ho!! me here again.. so excited to write wad has happened today haha.. i went church early coz got water baptism class to attend.. on e other hand, my cg playing captain ball with other cg.. friendly match.. e class made us understand better of water baptism.. every believer shld go for it ASAP! but e person must believe, sincerely repent n to understand e act of baptism.. i met my usher friend.. e baptism is just next sun.. she encouraged me to go for it n not to delay.. coz she herself delayed until now since last year.. hmm.. haha but i tink i will go for it :) by faith ar..

after e class wanted to join cg.. but i tink its my responsibility to go commmunion support.. when i reached there.. alot pp leaving.. coz got busing n greeters duty.. so i came in at right time.. they need pp to help in communion elements.. haha ya counted waffles n pour wine etc.. by e time me, jamie joined cg at audi.. svc started.. great praise man! woah! after praise got to report for usher liao.. i did with jonathan.. talked alot with him n eric.. haha.. n with melissa.. she turned darker.. looked sporty! n nice! but she dun like haha..

i'm very happy to see so many new faces in my cg during svc.. roy, tze whye, june, brenda, yi huai, derrick.. how i wish e whole cg pp will be present.. after tt went makan at JP.. tt roy very funny.. like very hungry haha.. went life bookshop to buy bible for xiao yu, bookmarks for roy n tze whye.. soon took train back to tamp.. haha suddenly i felt like taking photos....... guess wad? we went!! on hor!! haha.. roy n teck whye came along too!! but hock wee went home with jia hui..

haha i tink we bit ma fan.. go toliet n doll up.. den e 2 guys so poor thing.. haha.. finally got to e shop.. we calculated on e cost n which machine to use.. coz cy at tanah merah liao.. so we waited for her.. dj too faraway liao.. no need wait.. haha.. very fun n exciting as we're preparing e positions etc..... we talked n shrieked lo.. haha.. coz e camera shot very fast.. we quickly posed.. i tink got 3 or 4 shots.. haha e photo super duper nice!!!!!! there's only one piece.. everyone wants to keep it.. but we decided to scan it to everyone first.. den ask jaycen tp help laser print for us.. its so memorable..... den went NTUC walk walk.. also bought e lemonade at $1 haha.. we waited for it one.. meet up with dj n went home.. yes i'm so happy haha..... wed going to take again haha... :)

seow li is so happy.. she's rejoicing.. :)

reached home at 11 plus.. feeling hungry sia.. den i DIY made cheese hotdog.. i cut in betweeen e hotdog n stuff in cheese slices.. i put all 10 hotdogs into e big oven haha.. wei lin ate finished her maggie liaoz i still not finished yet.. aiyo.. e oven got alot sound.. i scare it will explode haha.. den u'll see me appearing in e newspaper liao haha..

finally it's ready.. wah e hotdog very ugly lo.. it split open like dunno wad.. got 4 is uncooked.. i threw away.. my father took one n ate.. den he stole another one.. he said very nice haha.. yeah.. so left 4.. yup its nice.. i ate only 2.. threw away e other 2.. chi dao pa.. den i went to read bible.. feel like chiong-ing e reading.. but i doubt i can finish by sun..

anyway today i stayed at home b4 went for cg in e evening.. i practised guitar for long time.. e strings sounded weird.. got to change string liao.. den talked to clara awhile.. she shared with me baptism thing.. i thank God for all e pp He has sent into my life.. there's always somebody for me to talk to.. i asked my father liao.. he allows me to be baptized.. in fact i'm glad n surprised recognised me in Christ.. i can talk to them freely bout this.. to my whole family.. which i din expect.. yes its God's power.. sometimes u will just receive things u din expect to.. i'm very proud tt my parents officially allow me to go baptism.. they're giving me e choice.. they wanted me to be responsible of e little or big things i do.. yes i will.. let me learn things.. as compared to my other friends.. i realised tt they're really giving me alot freedom.. of coz i have to be accountable them.. i regretted fr all those attitude i gave to them in e past.. when in sec sch.. actually i v rebellious if u really know me tt time.. its just kan bu chu.. there's a time i always quarrel with them.. fr e moment i stepped into house.. they'll nag at me.. i den shot back.. my attitude was bad lah.. really.. but now.. i'm no longer e person whom i'm used to be.. God changed me.. All glory goes to Him.. now there's a battle within me bout baptism.. i wan to get ready.. its a very big decision.. its going to be a significance of my life..

haha for rest of day.. i watched huan zhu vcd while doing jigsaw.. i completed liao.. doggie.. haha.. i like erkang alot.. got character.. i dun like xiao yan zi.. too cong dong le.. if i'm yongqi.. i 'xiu' le ta haha.. kidding.. den quickly prepare for refreshment for cg.. very heavy lo.. got guitar to bring also.. cg's at qy's house.. very near my house..

cg started n we've got 6 new friends.. woah.. we had games.. though bit blur blur.. i tink its quite fun haha.. had praise n worship.. great time.. but hor everyone of us was sweating lo.. haha not enough ventilation.. i wanted to sweat myself but i cannot coz got to play guitar.. den e sweat went into my eyes.. haha.. pain.. short word but powerful.. after tt had fellowship.. many pp helped me with refeshment.. thanks.. it wouldn't be possible without their help.. qy's father even prepared bun for us! wow! den we watched tv n talked talked.. fun sia.. we left e house at 10pm.. i walked to bus stop with them.. left me, dj, jen, zhi jian.. we talked till 11 plus haha.. very long breath haha.. ya.. reached home n did e cheese hotdog as i've mentioned..