these days i simply like going out with my family to eat in e morning.. so i would get myself up fr sleep n go with them.. ya.. den reached home n washed up to meet for 'breakfast' with dj, jamie they all.. at church.. we took 2nd bus.. we went to church cafe.. i drank hot chocolate.. yum! its nice! $1 only somemore haha.. soon more pp joined us.. i forgot an easier method to do completing e squares.. so can't help qy much haha.. den went for greeters.. e rain was heavy.. e thunderstorms was scary.. some of e pp jumped.. bought a small card for qy.. hope it can encourage her in her studies :)

i sat with cg.. yeah.. so happy.. sat at floor area of musician side.. we took 3 rows.. tt's alot.. derek, yihuai gto 2 new friends.. i tink they quite lame though din talk much with them.. one of them looked like yuan kai.. i sat next to tian zhen.. fr china de.. she used e tanslater thing to listen.. but e sound is like very muffled.. so some she din catch it.. great praise n worship.. yeah.. really placing my whole heart unto e altar.. haha plus praising God together with cg is even exciting! haha..

we makan first before go for pos.. din go for joy's shooting.. coz it wouldn't be nice if all of us just go.. leaving rest of my cg pp with N229.. it would be weird.. we learnt rest of a dance.. but i still cannot catch up e last part with e music.. haha practise makes perfect.. e viewing started at 8plus.. i tink other schs improved alot.. i enjoyed.. got professional cheerleaders perform.. they're superb! i tink we did not bad.. but have to brush up on crowd engagement etc.. remember tt winning is not everything.. its bout wad we learn in e process.. e spirit.. e unity.. its for for e glory of God.. we ended late.. 11plus.. we took cab home.. i was sleep by then.. haha.. den after praying at home.. i felt quite energized again.. haha

yup! Nicole is going to be strong! God is her refuge, her shelter! its where she can find peace in her heart! No problem shall be too great for her! Coz God is with her always! She shall turn every problem into an opportunity to learn sth precious out fr it! yes she shall rejoice! of coz always looking up to e saviour whom she can confide in! yes Nicole! jian chi dao di!!

mm.. 1.13am.. haven sleep yet.. not feeling sleepy.. haha.. i had my cg.. i tink it was a great meeting.. i like e praise n worship.. has been since a long time i can rest n enjoy it haha.. yes i truly enjoyed it! so exciting.. Daniel shared his testimony which impacted me like a kick within me.. forgiving pp.. e last sentence he said was : Let go and Let God..

yeah.. breakthrough in him.. and a revelation for me..

bro nick told us tt shldn't God deserve all our worship.. he asked us to come to God n be in peace at heart.. wow.. tt's wad i need.. i tink others too :) e worship was superb.. e presence.. my focus was totally locked unto God.. i know i cannot accomplish so much things without His strength.. n i need it.. e msg was good.. commitment.. friendship commitment.. yup i do need to contact with other friends.. i dun wan e new to come n e old to go.. i played guitar for ministering.. i forgot to bring my own pick.. i used alan's.. i'm not really used to it.. so haha.. always wan to drop.. but haha.. i like e whole meeting :)

maybe a combine would be better? we can learn fr them.. everytime during cg.. i gets excited n motivated.. i felt it was good.. just tt still bit weird coz not really know e pp well.. so need time also..

cy played guitar with me.. practise with her.. fruitful.. haha.. yeah just playing for fun is diff fr playing for cg.. seems like learning chords n strumming is easy.. playing for cg is another thing.. n btw.. learning chords n strumming is not easy.. it only comes with practice.. fr e start.. i just learnt for fun.. nv thought to become a guitarist for cg.. well i'm glad to say i'm playing for E307.. n its my cellgroup.. ya.. got e sense of belonging one ba.. my journey isn't easy.. there're times i felt like giving up.. running away n not to play anymore.. to leave cg w/o any pp playng for.. but i'm glad i din give up.. coming this far.. i really wan to thank God.. for e desire n passion to play n play.. i get over-sensitive when i hear guitar sound.. i will just turn n look to see who's playing.. meanwhile trying to catch wad n how e person is playing.. yes up till now.. i still have alot to learn.. its nv ending.. i wan bring music into life.. to deliver message.. to convict pp.. to minister.. so its not just bout skills n knowing how.. there's once when alot pp were on fire for guitar playing.. but now leh? their fire is simply gone.. so know where n what u really wan do.. wandering around doesn't gets u anywhere sometimes.. haha.. so whoever really wants to play.. CONVICT URSELF! N GO TOWARDS IT!

haha there's still things i wan share.. but next time ba.. i wan go lala land le haha..

today got dragon boat orientation.. but my time just clashes.. tuition n cg.. hmm.. i'm trying to arrange so that i can attend e trainings.. of coz cg i would go.. tuition i'm not giving up.. source of my extra income.. den now i've got alot things to pay off haha.. my this mth hp bill is high.. real high.. i dunno how i used either.. plus pos clothes need to pay.. my hp is also an problem.. haiyo.. really have thought of buying new guitar liao.. but have to clear all these stuffs first.. last night i went to far east with jamie, chris, zhiwei.. i'm tempted to buy clothes! some just caught my attention.. haha.. have been praying for blessings.. haha.. yes i believe there is :)

i wan to study hard.. to do well in my poly.. yeah its all about independent work.. i like.. haha but sometimes very lazy.. ping at first is in same class with me.. n i relied alot on her to inform me things bout sch work haha.. well.. she's been transferred out.. so diff class.. she's taking vet sci.. i'm taking biomolecular sci.. suddenly i got sec thought.. but cannot lah.. i know tt in e very first place why i joined AS is coz of biomolecular.. so i'll just stick to it.. i dun wan to regret just coz of wan to join with friends.. i'm 18 this yr.. must make sensible decisions..

at first i was bit lost when i knew she's transferred out.. yes.. LOST.. haha.. coz i was tinking oh no.. plus i dunno 99% of pp who's in same class with me.. plus most got their clicks.. coz fr same previous class.. haha so i have to jia you.. maybe its a good thing coz i can be more responsible in my sch work.. oh my timetable is quite packed.. if plus DB, tuition, cg, church, POS.. my schedule is really tight.. i just wan try.. to see how far i can cope haha..

ya.. haha ok lah going to give tuition liao.. if write somemore i'm going to be late.. haha.. bye~

in sch now.. today got 8am to 9am lec.. but i overslept.. so din go sch.. anyway by right today lesson till 6pm de.. but all tutorial n lab cancelled.. haha.. good good.. so now waiting for clara to teach her guitar.. den later go pos.. going tuition tonight also.. yesterday was my first day of yr 2 schooling.. started at 9am.. pure lec day.. they intro e subjects n went thru study guides.. wah.. i dozed off no. of times.. e whole BIO/BMS cohort is divided liao.. i got into Biotechnology.. Biomolecular Science.. sounds chim.. i got a subject which i dun like.. Applied Immunology.. aiyo.. its more of medical side leh.. why we still taking.. haha aiya nvm lah.. shld have of use one.. my timetable okok lah.. not so good n not so bad.. ya its packed.. but aiya xi guan liao.. i taking free hand drawing haha.. yeah.. its my first choice :)

well i'm thinking of joining dragon boat as cca.. its not coz of e race on mon i've had with other cg.. before tt i've been thinking liao.. training like very tough.. but i just feel like trying out.. i like tanning.. but not chao ta lah haha.. i like e spirit when everyone is rowing together.. yes everyone is tired.. but they just row n row.. just keep on~ its not just about winning e race.. funny lo.. now june they all also wan join liao haha.. its e hot topic among us liao haha..

oh ya recently alot events also.. felt like writing down.. but too long liao lah haha.. ya.. e sentosa for extreme sports.. combined cg meeting.. dragon boat race etc..

and ya.. my water bottle cap is spoilt.. it leaked out h2o.. n it enter my hp.. it just shut off.. i cannot even switch on.. sad.. now its with svc pp.. checking how much it will cost if to repair.. i shall see how things goes.. whoa actaully wanted to save money buy acoustic guitar liao.. den my hp extra.. haha.. e hp i really like is very ex.. so its impossible to get tt.. now i'm using zi chian's.. haiyo.. also.. my bible got wet.. haiyo.. pos clothes need money also.. i just hope my this month hp bill is lesser.. haha..

yeah.. i felt sleepy these days.. just felt so happy when it comes to sleeping every night.. haha.. i need at least 6 hrs.. yeah its a time when i can rest myself.. haha.. so i wun spend so much time using com at night liao.. unless project lah.. rather go my lala land haha..

hmm my house is in a very 'jiang' situation now.. my mum n bro quarrel.. i dun really know wad happened in e morning coz i was out.. i only know tt my bro asked $80 fr my mum to buy shoes.. my mum dun let n my bro not happy.. den they quarrel.. den when my bro reached home in e evening.. my mum out of no reason raised e thing again n scold n scream.. my bro also sian lah.. he diam diam.. i also diam diam.. i hate it when my mum talked bout finances thing.. i always dun haf enough for myself liao.. though got extra income fr work or tuition.. let alone my bro.. yes my bro is in a wrong.. but i tink my mum also shldn't say some things tt is so unfair to me n my bro.. i got agitated.. i tried not to open my mouth.. in case i got involved n made her even boil.. coz she dunno actually how much me n bro are struggling over e little income we had.. we din say anything lo.. since sec sch till now.. e amount i got is almost e same.. seriously i dun have enough myself at times.. coz outside food how much already.. transport leh.. free meh.. other expenses also.. so most of e times i would 'chong zi ji' when i got paid etc.. but got limit also lah.. so i just dun like when she raised this issue.. but still.. i'm glad i ren just now.. i'm glad i managed to keep my mouth shut..

yes still.. i must honour my parents.. i'm angry.. but i cannot allow it to cause myself to sin..
these few days.. e devil has been attacking me.. he is aiming at my weaknesses.. trying to pull me down.. i was cycling.. alot things running thru my mind.. bad thoughts.. but i did silently speak in tongues to myself.. i just tried to boost my spirit up.. i shall fight e good fight of faith.. with e sword of word of God.. he shall perish.. its true tt after my baptism.. e presence of God experienced is doubled.. but e level of spiritual attack is also doubled.. i'm nicole.. no longer e old me.. i'm stronger than ever.. nicole=having a victorious heart.. n tt's wad is in me now =) its not easy.. but i know i shall reign.. trimph.. rejoice in trials..

oh well i stayed at qian's house on tue.. tt night we ate zhu cao.. very full.. but nice.. she played msn.. while i did my own things.. bu zhi bu jue 2 plus am le.. went to sleep liao coz got to wake up early next morning.. yeah so we rushed ourselves to sch.. she's late.. i'm not haha.. she got orientation.. i got PBL learning thing.. den went to watch House of Wax with classmates.. hmm.. its er xin.. i watch liao very uneasy.. me n yvonne talked alot in e cinema.. plus we were both very disgusted by certain scenes.. i tink its e first time i dun wan to watch coz of er xin.. but ok lah very exciting sia.. haha.. at night dj gave free pizza to me, wei lin, cy.. at central park.. stayed there talk talk.. n eat.. yum~ but got a pizza quite awful.. i dunno wad flavour.. tricia came to meet me for guitar playing.. soon saw qian.. haha.. i stayed with tricia at e park till 2 am.. wow.. got police car patrolling.. we thought they gonna chase us out haha.. but no lah..

thanks for sharing with me so much things.. i know there's things i've got to initiate to do.. really thanks.. did help to lift my spirit even up.. i thank God for giving me e friends whom i can speak my heart out.. God is indeed a good God :)

haha now i really dun feel like blogging liao.. but will blog once in a while ba haha.. there's going to be changes all around.. i'm not really used to it.. i'm bit reluctant haha.. but sometimes changes is for e better.. but i tink must learn to adapt.. combining with bro nick's cg.. today met e cg pp.. haha.. we did intro ourselves around.. their cg bit adult.. yeah i feel tt its quite big changes.. i dunno wad's really e purpose for it.. but haha there's surely e good purpose tt God had placed us into.. so.. we'll just see how thing goes..

i just got to know tt su wei was fr bro nick's cg previously.. cy know who is she also.. she's in my team in usher one.. tt time joined usher not long n know her de.. but suddenly she just disappeared.. hmm.. lose faith ba..

i believe tt our mind is e greatest destroyer of ourselves.. it places us into negative situations.. yes.. my spiritaul attack is really getting revealing to me.. now is even stronger.. at times my mind also gotta got carried away fr God.. No.. i wun allow this to happen.. God is my shelter.. i know everything will go on fine if i just hold on.. yes i shall hold on..

haha i took a long time to blog.. write until i'm very sleepy liao haha.. k lah.. see when's e next time i'll blog again :)

i lazy update sia.. alot events happened.. good n bad.. cannot possibly write down everything down haha.. right now i'm not working at e C.A.N cafe le.. many pp quitted coz its very tiring.. but its not e issue to me.. wad i dun like.. is really e boss's attitude.. i'm trying my best to talk for him liao.. but i cannot ren already.. another thing is tt e envt dun really makes me feel secure.. plus pay is low.. but i'm giving tuition to a K2 kid.. e mum is fr CHC lo! so good! easy to talk haha.. but e kid talks alot one haha.. like to talk rubbish..

i finally took e pay for my 4 working days.. i repeat e word.. FINALLY... haha.. i've been to 2 days for e Pastor Phil's conference.. i can only say tt e presence is always so strong.. today i sat with CG.. so happy.. jumped n leaped together for joy of e Lord.. tml i'm going too.. last day of conference.. i'm thinking to buy his book on leadership.. haha..

anyway e POS was going fine.. we had our first viewing le.. SP is quite good.. we changed our dance steps.. i like e steps now haha.. so seh.. oh ya i went to Kbox on mon with jamie, wei lin, kehui.. pauline came see see only.. haha.. wei lin like e 'ma tong' by andy lau hahaha.... ask her sing solo but she dun wan haha.. but haha quite fun lah.. i went play pool with jamie, jason e next day.. so fun haha.. i like play pool liao haha.. ask me go along if wan play!! before sch starts must enjoy!! :)

last night i went to work.. starting very quiet one.. not much customers even at 8plus.. before that jeffery asked me go suntec buy green tea ice-cream.. but hor.. not a single tub is there lo.. out of stock.. elis n i were discussing if there'll be alot customers.. we doubt there'll be many.. jen's friend supposed to come to work one but she din come.. coz she dunno anything.. i also dunno wad's happening.. so we're short of a staff..

n it turned out to be alot alot customers.. they came at plus.. suddenly crowded.. upstairs opened too.. e orders for food increased too.. den a fryer was spoilt.. so time was delayed in finishing e food.. at e same time we got to run here n there to take orders, bill, serve etc.... not forgetting e food too.. jeffery helped me bit.. got a customer ordered 3 tubs of chicken wings.. time flies.. nearly twelve liao.. aiping left.. left only elis, jeffery, me.. alot work to do.. clear e tables.. wash e utensils.. do closing.. clean e kitchen fryer, coffee machine.. wah.. xiong.. i tink first time i felt so tired in working there..

my legs very suan.. elis also very tired.. haha.. first time i see her like tt too.. at nearly 2am.. still got customers in e shop leh... haiyo.. i so hope tt they will leave haha.. so i can go home earlier to rest.. normally no more customers in e shop latest 1.30am.. so i finished everything at 2am plus.. wah den arh... jeffery n elis talked so much.. got 40mins lo........ i kept quiet coz i wan go home.. haha...

on e way back.. e stretch of road.. we saw a gang.. all ah pek one.. they dun seems to be friendly one.. can see one.. they were gathering around a man bout their age.. one of e ah pek was holding a thick stick.. i saw him hitting e man at e leg.. starting i thought like play play.. but as i got nearer.. i realized its not.. e man was like in great pain.. but he ren.. den his face dun look good.. den an auntie in pajamas came n passed e gang sth.. i tink e family own e gang things.. i felt e urge to help e man.. but elis told me not to cha shou.. i dun feel good coz i saw e face of e man.. he's like wanting help so much.. but we just walked off lo.. we makan e fishball noodle.. quite nice.. den i saw police going into e road where we came from.. ya good good.. let them settle.. i reached home at 3 plus.. wah.. late sia.. haha.. slept at 4.30am after prayer n bathing..

today i had POS training.. polishing up e dance steps.. some my cg pp went too.. glad tt they've learnt e dance steps also.. e music is fast.. so we got to dance according to e fast beat.. Melvin n sis xue min came over to watch us.. long time nv see e Me toh sia.. we learnt e cheer too.. yup there's power.. got to mingle around more.. got alot diff new faces.. den wed is e first viewing liao.. tt's fast..

after tt went to KR.. i was hungry.. i guess e rest also haha.. so we ordered own side dishes.. ate until very full sia.. my Mac Cheese.. YuM.. e muffin bit drop standard.. haha.. we went watch e Koi.. scare me lo.. a fish suddenly kick e water.. i was so near to it.. watson got alot sales.. feel like buying e dye.. n chocolates.. haha.. tt time already 7 plus liao.. wei lin, qy went off first.. me, jamie, cy went to peninsular plaza.. i wanted to see guitars.. but e shop was closed lehz.. we den sat at staircase at raffles city.. talk talk.. talk until 10 plus sia.. haha.. ya a prayer meeting is needed.. we must do sth in cg.. there's just sth is lacking..

we left for home den.. on e train talked so much crap.. er xin also.. we practically argued if eat 1 banana better or 3 banana better.. haha.. anyway e mac ice-cream cone cost 50cents liao.. not 25 cents..

hmm.. haha somehow i bit attracted to......... tink part-time only ba.. very soon will end.. haha..

one thing.. sometimes we just have to give in.. cannot always tink tt u're e only one who's right lo.. complain n complain.... why not just focus wad can be done in a better way.. dun always expect pp to do things ur way.. ya.. pray more lah.. haha.. God Bless You :)

12.45am liao.. mon le.. sun morning lucky got jamie give me morning call.. manage to catch svc 5 last bus haha.. i brought e food my mum bought for me to church cafe to eat.. i bought earl grey tea at cafe.. shldn't have asked them put milk.. taste weird.. but it smells nice.. jamie bought hot chocolate.. wow.. tasty! after tt went to report for greeters..

i tink somehow we need urgency.. cannot always take pp for granted.. after svc went jurong pt eat.. den to C.A.N cafe.. we ordered drinks n played heart attack with poker cards.. haha fun sia.. e place we sitting was good also.. but e lighting makes me feel sleepy.. my drink not really tt nice.. i dunno how to descibe..

soon more pp came in.. we helped to sing birthday songs for a birthday guy haha.. saw jin kun, melissa, geraldine.. haha they like know alot pp.. we stayed there till 11 plus.. den go home haha.. anyway zack, wilfred with us too!

"haha.. hmm just stop complaining can.. sometimes i'm really irritated.."