I find this song really nice~ thot its by celine dion.. i've been trying hard to find it.. very nice.. will upload e song soon =)


Natalie Imbruglia
Torn

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around
And he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Or seem to care
What your heart is for
I don't know him anymore

There's nothin' where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothings right
I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now, I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch
I'm torn

There's nothin' he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right
I'm torn
Chorus

tue morning.. jus came back fr jogging.. last jog on last wed! tt's quite long ago huh.. so today really discipline myself go! feel so shiok!! thank God tt my stamina hasn't de-proved.. can stil go on for a dist w/o stoppping.. really like e feeling after u've exercised! u feel good n healthier!

actually had bit of ache over my body.. coz of e pasir ris outing on sun after svc.. after svc xiao yu had gastric n its pretty serious.. we took care of her n ger, jian an took her see doc den jian an sent her home.. rest of us made our way to white sands to makan.. on e way somehow every1 spirit was like dampen.. me also bit sian.. but tried cheering rest up.. maybe all of us hungry lah.. eat le shld be ok.. true enough.. xueting seems tired n she slept at e foodcourt.. after tt she wanted to go home so i acc her to mrt.. after tt yishi, minhao, linus, germaine joined us.. elaine's fren came too! jing yan was e game master n rest were separated into 2 groups.. my group got germaine, ziyang, jing xiong.. group name is SUPER SL! haha.. e other group got elaine, yishi, linus, minhao.. group name i 4got liaoz.. we got to perform a cheer.. its like competition coz got points earned in every game etc.. we played total 6 games! all very fun sia.. really brighten everyone's day.. everyone enjoy!! laughter n jokes everywhere!! i love e team spirit!

we really got to run around.. like BMT.. every1 sweating n panting haha.. e best game is e water bomb thing!! my group keep winning like tt!! haha so funny lo.. e other group got to stand still n we throw e bombs onto them! but of coz we did get thrown too hee.. got one time we sabo jing yan.. he din knw.. both groups aim him! ziyang really go run after him! all of us laugh like dunno wad.. finally end of e game gt prize presentation! we cheered for jing yan, jing xiong n everyone of us!! e team spirit really there.. i love it!! i feel jing yan really did a gd job.. every1 had fun! though starting he bit discouraged coz nt many pp going.. but turns out well.. i understand his feeling.. tt's i wanna go to support him! mh went to bath.. rest us sat together talk crap n took pic.. den we played games again hee.. finally mh came back.. we go chiong for e bus.. coz its turning to e bus stop.. if miss got to wait another 15mins! we managed to hop onto e bus! den we went makan.. we busy taking pic, forgetting bout ordering food hee.. but we had fun lah.. den we eat eat talk talk.. gd fellowship! after tt we gg hm le.. i was e 1st to alight coz tamp.. aiyo den walk hm alone again!! i bit xi guan alone le haha..

E409 rox! i tink nv a moment we're quiet.. haha.. got my cousin around aiyo.. haha.. but i'm v happy tt he's on fire for God.. but there's still alot things for him to learn.. hope to see him growing together with me! den gt other pp who likes to talk alot haha.. wah.. headache hehe.. but i like.. tt time talking to elaine.. we were saying this cg very special haha.. coz got diff kind of pp one.. its our 1st time facing this.. fun is fun.. but we mus help them grow!! we got to stand in e gap for carrie also!! really pray tt they'll become more mature in Christ! =)

alot things happening in my life.. but i'll not 4get e friends i have de lah.. like cy, wei lin, , jamie,qy, kehui, joy, jen, clara, des, ronald, jas, jollie, jing, christine, kwan yu, cindy lim, tee yong, dj , ping, bren, june, vonne etc etc.. will really make time for them! i love my friends n family members! :)

i'm in crossroad again.. tinking to leave usher coz i knw tt usher is really nt for me.. i cannot see myself there de leh.. cannot focus while in usher.. my mind is always filled with cg stuff.. carrie gave me few suggestions.. i feel gd bout it.. i've informed my usher ic bout it.. see how things go.. maybe i'll really focus fully on CG ministry.. or maybe to try out choir at e same time.. really need directions fr God!!

haha yeah me n jian an were prayed by yilun le! Praise God! actually feel quite blessed lah.. tt yilun approved of us n tt she prayed for us personally! she nv share much due to time constraint.. but carrie will help her to talk to both us.. i feel gd after e prayer! its a journey for me n him together! e feeling is diff sia when talking to e guy u're attached to n when talking to other guy friends.. he told me its really nt easy to be christian couple.. ya lo its true.. coz e guy always gt to rise up! n tt we gt to be a living testimony! he said tt he hope we can go thru it together.. yup i hope so too! we can do it one! i've told my dad bout him.. he very cool leh.. he jus said as long as jian an is good to me den ok lo haha.. my bro knw le too.. soon mum will knw.. haha.. nw almost e whole world knw bout it le.. my cg pp lah aiyo keep teasing us.. i believe he'll try his best to grow de.. i dun wan to pressure him.. let God do e work in him! In me too! i hope this relationship will really bring us into a higher level!! =)

i'm feeling bored.. yesterday told cy tt i shld update my blog.. coz our lives are so happening!! wahaha.. so i tink jus update nw.. i'm better in words.. i'll jus write it down whichever i shld.. it can be a really long entries.. hee.. there goes my 2week break.. haha.. ok lah.. relax n enjoy quite abit le.. next week will start 2nd term of e sem.. projects deadline awaiting.. so these days meet up with my project pp n started out things le.. so far got DDCT debate, prescribtion of drug, BPT report, CSAS interview, editing test.. sounds alot eh? but its manageable! stress level is not even 20%! ever since start of sem, have been on holiday mood.. even till nw.. haha.. like slack sia.. but e exams are no joke lah haha.. i hope can get A for BPT!

so wad did i do for e 2week break? starting got Emerge conference which is a tremendous time for many of e youths in church! i really pray e youths will not let this spirit of excitment away.. hold on to ur dreams n visions! i'm trying hard to too! =) let's jia you together! really believe tt age doesn't limit a person! it all deals with e attitude of mind! if u tink u will fail, u will fail..! haha back to my holi.. rest of days have been gg out ba.. yeah.. n i went JB with qian yu, jian an, minhao, juet! i was excited.. e idea of gg to a foreign land ourselves jus excites me hee.. took an express bus fr bugis to custom.. so we gt to scan our passport.. i die die also dun let mh, ja see my passport photo! qy see liao laugh like dunno wad!.. hers also lo haha.. so funny..haha

in midst of crossing e causeway.. e scenery outside is beautiful! slowly our hp dun have reception le.. den we got to alight to stamp our passport.. den jian an passed me a nike shirt which i like.. man.. i was stunned.. unexpected! yeah so we've at JB le.. walked bit.. changed money n find our way to city square.. quite a big shopping centre! we pei mh eat.. den we decided watch a movie "Almost Love"! it was very funny.. by e time it was already 5plus.. so we got to hurry to shop!! walked around.. i saw alot things i raelly like.. very style.. but some prices still same as in s'pore de..but some really cheap! bought a bag, slipper, shirt for bro.. stil got alot places haven shop de.. coz no time! by e time, already 8plus!! we quickly made our way to holiday plaza n buy tibits! i bought alot sia.. den only RM 29.. haha.. i really da bao xiao bao.. others also.. we were very hungry.. made our way to e taman hawker eat seafood! jian an said very disappointing.. haha i like e kang kong.. ok lah.. we travel via cab.. wah very small lo.. we got 5pp.. got to split into 2cabs.. den ah always very hard to find one another at e destination de.. haha exciting ah.. we split bubble+chewing gums into our pockets.. nth happen :)by e time we reach s'pore aleady 11plus.. me, qian took last bus fr woodland.. i reach hm at 1am! tired! haha but i'm quite happy.. new experience for me..

love excitment! love to try new things! wanna learn roller blading! last time i fell back n front.. very painful. got bit phobia.. but i wanna overcome.. cannot always scare! i knw i can do it one! so i wanna master it! orh i wanna train badminton also..! so long nv play tink bit rusty le.. tink minhao a good player! yeah challenging! wanna play with him.. i'm still jogging n swimming every week.. wanna keep myself fit n healthy.. wan tan myself.. i like my skin colour nw hee.. very happy tt i've improved my stamina le..! keep it up Seow Li! i really prefer outdoor stuff rather than keep gg shopping sia.. to me, to shop mus have e mood one..! Not too often can liaoz =)

i've jus bought myself a new acoustic guitar! i've waited so long le.. finally can have one myself.. no need keep borrowing fr pp.. i've got own one le! its mine! zion D21! i love e sound.. love e design.. love e flow it gives me.. but still need to season it! thanks to e owner.. initally is $460.. he selling me at $410.. actually quite cheap le.. coz its quite a good guitar.. can plug-in also.. e sound is really nice! nw i dun feel e pinch though quite large money.. i believe its a gd investment! i really need it to play n lead in cg meeting n to teach pp! =)

haha n oh ya.. most imptly.. i'm attached to him.. we'll try to grow together spiritually.. hee.. carrie will announce on sat.. gg to get prayed for on sun.. wah really long story coz really drag until real long.. i also lazy type sia.. he feels tt maybe its jus a crush for me.. n maybe mine is jus a crush for him.. haha but actually if its a crush also crush quite long lehz.. he wanted to knw how i feel so i let him knw.. n tt's it.. wad yilun said is right lah.. we can nv be sure until we jus try.. we're together ever since mon.. n nw i also knw how he feels le.. we did inform yilun, carrie tt we'll be together.. quite number pp also knw le.. some guess also can guess correct.. smart lehz.. yup i will inform my parents about it.. hee.. i wan my family to knw him.. n i hope tt its gg to be a blessed one! =)

think its time to blog! revive this poor little blog of mine.. busy these days n also lazy to update lah.. in e past update almost everyday so faithfully.. haha.. things change.. jus reached home not long.. 12plus.. quite sleepy.. took cab back with victor.. i seldom would wan take cab home one.. n this time is i initiated de.. hoping a car to jus send me back my house! e idea of walking back to city hall mrt fr esplanade there dreads me.. its a long long way back.. n after tt still got to take bus hm.. sleepy.. really sleepy le.. i slept very well during e journey back hm.. jus feel like sleeping n hoping e cab jus keep going on.. it was a sound sleep! so e cab stopped at my house.. vic alighted also.. wah den he walking hm.. really paiseh.. quite late oso le.. long day for him too..

i went to watch "The Omen" with jing yan, yishi and xiao yu.. we waited for very long b4 e show started! all commericals! always got cheated tt e show is gg to start! haha.. we sitting quite far back so e screen seemed small to us.. but ok lah coz its a horror movie.. screen no need too big haha.. i quite dan xiao when watch this kind movie.. i will jump n scream one.. alot times e pp around me not scared one.. but coz of my scream they also xia dao! haha.. yishi, jing yan also scare one lo.. haha.. got some parts i really xia dao.. but only scream once.. other parts nv coz i covered my ears n eyes! to prepare myself for e worst haha..! e movie actually not bad.. we dun like e ending.. haha.. but ok lah.. we discussed alot n very enthu on e way out.. den we makan at yoshinoya.. e beef very nice! yum! as usual, i ate e slowest! even yishi also laughed at me! aiyo! coz she said she already eat very slow. me even worse.. haha.. i dun like to eat fast one lehz.. like to man man xiang shou e food! enjoy~!

so we crap talk alot lo.. haha so funny.. buay tahan them.. jing yan is my cousin.. being with him rite.. u will like be distracted fr ur xin shi one.. coz he's a very outgoing n crappy guy.. always got things to laugh at one.. nv a moment sian.. like being with him.. of coz i'm glad he's in church nw.. on fire for God.. so proud of him tt he actually came early to expo to queue up.. always one of e earliest! really wanna see him grow n mature n become a stable, spiritual man of God! den to help reach out to more my family members! my mum, dad, bro!

back to yoshinoya.. we meet up with minhao, germaine.. they gg for BS.. i supposedly gg meet ziyang for guitar.. but mis-com.. in e end i went to sit in for their BS! haha.. quite fun sia.. den we went back marina square again coz some wan to eat.. i talking over hp tt time.. bout some impt issues.. i really like being at marina square :) n e esplanade walk nearby.. we went there n shui hai feng.. very fresh.. e sea breeze n smell.. very relaxing.. i love it! so talk talk there.. some went hm.. we talk talk there.. soon lynn, weiting came along.. den i started getting sleepy le.. haha.. too comfortable over there le.. hee..

yeah my term tests are over~! so happy.. i find my BPT paper n DDCT paper quite easy.. really thank God for BPT.. last min morning den i understand e calculations.. i dunno wad is it all bout e night b4.. i knw how to apply in my paper! so happy! tink tt paper can score! so i shall enjoy my 2 weeks break! to train in my running n swimming! n to grow more in God n to help out more in CG!

oh ya emerge finish le! mus hold on to e spirit! i got 4th in my 400m race.. felt quite satisfied.. at least my efforts of training is not wasted! initially can get 3rd de.. but i really no energy le.. legs very wobbily.. next day i got ache fr leg all e way till stomach.. can see i really chiong n run for e race tt day.. haha.. i'm glad i went! next yr i wan participate again! i wan join POS, preaching, more sports events and maybe talentime? haha

ok lah really getting sleepy le.. go slp le.. tml gg jogging n swimming.. n also programmes here n there...! yeah! bye!