wanted to blog yesterday.. but e server kinda down.. its actually fri now.. i have been going out for past few days.. mon went to downtown east n east coast park.. its was raining very heavily.. in e end stayed there to eat Mac.. tue played pool.. but i only played for first hr.. i accidentally cut my finger.. e skin is kinda removed.. can see my flesh.. blood oozing out non-stop.. but we dun have plaster.. so i just clean it under tap water.. oh ya zi chian bought a bible! finally.. starting he dun wan to buy.. but we just drag him to see see first.. den maybe fri go with him to buy.. but he bought on e spot.. i bought a bookmark for him to put at e content page.. coz he dun really know how to flip e bible.. he can easily refer to e content page..

den i went to jeremy's house to visit.. e maid very funny lah haha.. explained to me a suria series show.. relationship problem.. haha.. n i got to know tt actually her life as a maid wasn't tt easy.. den my cute jeremy playing gameboy.. he very ke ai leh.. e maid likes to disturb him den very funny.. we went to e parent's room watch tv n talk talk.. he got scv.. so anyhow press e channel.. he told me to de.. haha.. my wound on my finger looks bloody lah.. den e maid gave me lotion to apply n jeremy put e plaster for me.. feels much better haha.. den went for tuition.. after tuition talked alot with e mum.. i was shocked when heard bout e family.. e relationship between her n husband.. but its really coz of e children whom brought hope n laugher for her.. melvern is my tuition kid.. he's quite handsome one haha.. jeavon is e younger bro.. he's super cute.. haha.. e way he speaks very adorable..

i din really watch stairway to heaven.. bit sleepy.. so dozed off.. haha

wed went to east coast KR with qian.. ate cup noodle together while walking there.. delicious! i dunno if wan go back work not.. if weekdays.. e max hr e manager can give is only 15 hrs.. hmm carrie asked me to wait for tuition opportunities.. maybe i shld? den sat at e bench n talked.. e breeze was cooling.. i was looking out into e sea n e clouds.. i love it.. i felt peace in my heart.. we went back tamp.. i pei her go optical shop coz she wana make new pair of contact.. den qian went back home.. i've got bs at ymca.. went with cy, jamie.. after bs i was supposed to go bedok pasar malam with jamie, zhiwei, zi chian.. but no money in ez link card le.. so me, cy went home.. as usual talked n talked together non-stop when walking home..

so thu.. haha went to sentosa with vonna, june, bren.. its june's actual birthday... we meet up earlier to buy cake.. bought chocolate pistachio. chim.. taste quite nice.. haha.. we ate at e hawker at harbourfront.. den got an auntie wanted june to pick 4D for her!! starting we dunno wad she trying to say.. she speaking dialect.. me, bren totally blur.. lucky june, vonne can understand.. i still remember e number.. yes reached siloso beach.. went kayaking!! its fun.. we used single kayak.. more fun.. i like kayak than canoe.. got diff.. learnt than npcc how to paddle, turn, stop.. all can apply liaoz haha.. den i can really go at fast speed.. very very fun.. den arh.. i wanted to kayak until e boundary there.. i saw something on e water fr a dist.. i was alone.. it looks like an animal.. but i thought maybe its a plank.. but i saw tt its head is turning bout.. i thought it was a seal.. looks like it.. so of coz i would paddle towards it.. i wan to find out.. as i got nearer.. i can confirm its not a plank.. its some animal but not seal.. it somehow like knows somebody (me) is approaching it.. it stoned.. so i also nv paddle nearer.. it looks fierce sia.. but i'm not really terrified.. but i got thought of tt maybe it would swim towards n attack me.. but i can use paddle to protect myself.. haha tink too much lah.. if dun touch it, i dun tink it will attack.. it was swimming towards those big rocks.. june came n i asked her to paddle quick with me.. yes e animal reached e rock n it climbed!! june den saw it.. its a four-legged lizard.. quite big sized.. it climbed up to top of rocks n disappeared.. hey.. it was exciting..

den we went swimming in e sea.. e sun was blazing hot.. by e time we got up.. got sunburnt already.. n dunno why i realized got a cut on my neck.. quite swollen.. june, bren looked tired.. we decided to bath first.. walked a long way to bathroom.. den there's this new ride.. chairlift n go-kart.. got this package of 4pp $20.. can take chairlift up n come down in go-kart.. vonne quite scared of height.. e chairlift brought us high up.. i took some scenery pic.. den e go-kart was cool.. very fast also haha.. went back siloso.. played e football table match..i won 3 match haha.. n we played 3 games of pool.. hehe.. we were super hungry by tt time.. got back to singapore.. ate at e foodcourt at harbourfront.. haha.. wah i looked red huh.. quickly, rushed back home to catch shows.. haha.. i dun wan miss channel U 10pm show.. i managed to.. haha.. yup i had fun..

later need to do cards for birthday pp.. i quite excited for it haha... actaully i got alot things to write.. things tt's on my mind n heart haha.. but no time arh.. quite late now.. going sleep liao haha.. update again.. cya!~

wow.. how long i din blog liaoz.. suddenly i felt so unfamiliar here ha.. but maybe my this post is going to be long long again haha..

ladies n gentlemen.. let me announce something.. MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! =)

i'm super duper 'high' when i thought of this.. e joy inside me.. i tink i'm more excited now as compared to e times after last paper of O.. sounds kua zhang.. but its true.. wah this sem exam is really 'killing' me.. stressful.. tiring.. haha.. coz my papers not easy one.. coz sci mah.. den got to memorise n understanding alot alot of things.. if dunno n nv study.. tt's it liaoz.. yesterday had mgen paper.. got 2 essay questions in section B.. one is 20marks.. e other is 15 marks.. when i see it.. i very sian.. haha.. coz my hands very tired.. section A also got 9m, 10m, 13m questions.. den so many thinking questions.. but actually e 2 essay questions are easy.. just throw out everything memorised.. just tt got to write alot.. lucky i can still remember e concept..

we took alot time doing this paper.. unknowingly i was left with <1hr when doing e 20m.. 15m haven do.. alot pp also.. normally alot pp would have finished n left e room.. but this paper no leh.. at times i got to stretch my hands.. numb.. thank God tt my seats are always away fr e aircon.. if not i cannot think well if too cold.. finally i was done with e paper.. haha i was super happy.. coz everything is finally over.. for this paper rite.. i studied till 4am leh.. break record lo.. i've nv studied until so late b4 one.. first time.. O level also nv like tt.. den morning wake at 7plus to study again.. my head felt heavy coz packed with alot things ha.. really studied very hard for this sem exam.. n also.. i was affected by it.. first time so serious..

but actually God is good.. for sending pp to me during those days when i'm feeling weak n tired.. it is really at right time.. since sun.. i was totally hmm.. my mind starts to wander n feel like giving up things.. so mon morning had my fpath.. it was my worst subject all this while.. n e paper was hard.. at least to me.. totally discouraged to study for e later paper.. i need to talk.. i felt like having someone to be by my side.. i called yvonne.. den she need to leave.. so i just stayed to study with my other friends to study.. but i couldn't conc.. i still got sth in me to be released.. den just in time.. cy came.. she asked how was my paper.. i nv say much coz in front of my friends.. she knew sth was wrong.. so we went into another corner.. i din talk much.. i just broke down.. i just felt like revealing e true inside me.. i felt better.. but seriously needed somebody i'm comfortable with to be by my side.. cy stayed over to pei me study for my later paper.. went to design sch coz is quieter.. we prayed b4 we start.. ya i can conc le.. she just read newspaper n bible.. soon my paper is going to start.. cy pei me right until to my exam room.. wo hao gan dong.. haha.. e paper was ok lah..

but at night when i'm alone.. my mind wandered again.. haiyo.. i was seriously tinking to give up everything.. e msg tt i sent to cy was horrible plus terrible.. made her cried.. i cried too.. my heart aches tt time also.. haha drama huh.. but it makes me realized tt how much she really cares.. n so i made a promise tt i will hold on.. n yes i did.. all e while sth is still in me which burdens me.. on tue morning.. benny called me.. very timely.. haha.. she asked bout my paper.. i told her e truth.. starting i was still ok.. but until a point when i broke down again on e phone.. she was shocked.. i told her other things also.. her words lifted me up.. i was battling if go for pm not.. benny dun really wan me go coz scare i canot study finish.. but i just went.. i nv regret it.. i was very much ok again.. e fire.. everything.. i'm prepared to stand up again.. n benny gave me a card.. which touched me.. n also thank God for all other pp for their prayers.. somehow i know tt i'm protected.. n tt there're pp behind my back supporting me.. n here i am again..

i'm back spiritually n physically fit again.. just read a book.. saying tt some problems are processes tt God used working towards a breakthru.. n tt when we're losing hope.. its really e time we need faith-building pp to surround us.. true true.. like my experience.. i can have benny to look up to.. e pp we choose to surround with will affect our life one.. ya.. i'm glad tt i've chosen e path tt is best for me.. tt is.. to walk with God.. we draw closer to God thru experiences.. i was nv tt affected by my studies b4.. but i was tested n hit in this area n leading to other areas too.. really depleting my energy n hope.. i can say tt i really broke down during those days.. n my mind really invaded by e devil.. but i chose to control my mind now.. to stand firm.. having to pray n pray.. now e storm is over.. n i made it.. when get e exam result (but actually i admit i din work hard during normal sch days ha).. no matter how's e result like, i'm nv going to fall easily now.. my foundation has become firmer now!! n also at e same time must work harder in next sem le!!

*Cheers*
so guys.. remember tt when meet a problem.. dun tell urself how big is ur problem.. tell urself how big is ur God to solve e problem =)