its e 3rd day of schooling ever since sch reopen.. Yr 3 le.. time files.. seriously i like my thu n fri.. thu 12pm n fri 3pm off le!! so happy.. mon to wed till 6pm.. but ok lah..its not e first time also.. e worst is tue ba.. so many breaks in between.. haha.. first wk in AS always no tut n lab de.. so this wk slack lo.. thu 11am off n fri no nd go sch!! next mon public holi.. wah long weekend sia!!

haiz but e best thing is tt this my APEL is pushed to this fri 12pm.. it will last less than 30mins! wah fancy come sch just for tt... aiyo... actually e timetable haven finalised de.. tml den is..my class de TE (Tissue Engineering) tut is missing.. scare anyhow put on thu or fri afternoon!!

haha yeah tml n fri alot activities!! teach pp guitar, chemistry, kayak etc..!! more coming up~ feel like trying out e initital D arcade haha.. seen my cousin playing.. like very fun..hee..mon holi!! so happy~

hmm actually was thinking bout my studies.. kinda lost interest.. dun feel like studying.. alot of my classmates or course mates too.. even those smart ones.. even those who initially had such strong passion for vet sci! they dunno why they are studying these.. even for me also.. we are studying jus for sake to pass e course.. many of them regretted..i dun dare to think.. if wan regret, i shld have stayed in JC! they're more inclined in business or design.. for me.. i really sian.. dun look forward to lesson 1.. feel like pom de.. but i din lah.. part of reason is my classmates ba.. haha i cannot really click with them.. have been praying bout it.. coz their thinking n their lives are v diff fr mine..dun feel easy when with them! i dun really spend time with them coz i got my own commitment.. yup i understand tt they dun understand.. i jus feel like using my time do other meaningful things.. really.. more purposeful.. maybe its bit selfish.. but den they would keep going out.. will spend alot money.. on e other hand i got to save.. they're better off than me.. so they can afford to spend but i cannot.. tt's y i dun really like to stay with them.. but have been really praying hard bout it.. sometimes really at a loss.. God~ speak to me~

i really pray tt i would not be easily distracted by some heart issue.. long long time nv like this le.. really.. n this time is quite diff.. nv really go think bout it.. but sometimes when ur heart moves, u din even know! maybe u have nv even predicted it! den slowly u'll get to knw more bout ur heart.. i did share with my leader.. wan to be accountable.. she did share with me things.. i haven really knw e ans.. really wanna knw.. i've gt e feeling tt e ans will delight me.. but i'm not confirmed.. n i dunno if its really fr God.. still have been praying bout it.. i dun wan to do thing my own way.. it'll bring to destruction de.. haha so my leader asked me to wait patiently first n must really pray hard bout it.. yes i'm really waiting.. haha.. at times e feeling can be sweet, at times can be really xin ku.. but i jus pray lo tt i'll not be easily distracted.. will still serve God to my best while waiting.. if it's really nt fr God, i shall have to let go!! Not my will be done but urs..

haha ya this is my xin sheng.. ok lah update soon~!

very free now..i'm left with 2 more weeks b4 sch reopen..after working for 1 month n 1 week..finally time to rest le..e feeling is so shiok tt when u wake up, u dun have to bother bout rushing for work etc..but ever since working..haven been really jogging le..so now got to restart training le..! yesterday went swimming with wei lin! our swimming complex open le! so happy..actually din really change much.. just tt its more upgraded..i like e surrounding! we soaked in e water for more than 2hrs..my skin wan rot le.. i'm getting tanner..which i like.. but i tend to return to white if nv expose to sun.. i love sun! today going with jen they all de.. but hai i cannot go....

very happy tt this morning an auntie who knows my mum said tt my qi se is very gd.. we first see each other..i'm glad i looked healthy! hee.. so must exercise more to maintain!

yesterday was my father's birthday! happy birthday! my mum n dad were surprised tt i remembered.. of coz i remember.. past few yrs i really forgot..i felt quite guilty n sad tt i forgot..i wan make them happy.. to show them tt all e cares tt they had showered over me since young is not wasted! i love my family more n more le.. really thank God for tt..its quite a miracle coz last time always on bad terms with them de.. esp with bro.. now he would share with me things.. its really nice when u can sit down with ur parents n share things with them.. i wan to be a support for them when they meeting any problem.. next time i wanna them to live a good life! my dad also xin ku lah.. have been working so hard for this family.. my mum also.. every early morning wake up wash our clothes n tend e house.. i'm glad my bro also notice all these.. i was so afraid last time tt he would mix wrong company n turn bad..but he din..he's considered quite sensible in his group of friends le.. so really thank God! i'm getting closer to some my cousins too.. i feel so blessed!

i love my cg.. i love my members.. i love my leaders.. i love my friends..

its great to be in E402.. i learn things.. i'm glad E307 is combining with us for time being.. they will be blessed! now wei lin under jasmine.. i'm sure she'll learn alot too! her cg members also very cute.. oh ya.. last week cg meeting.. its e first time i play guitar for e whole meeting! praise God~ after e fall n i took a break.. slowly play for makeup cg.. den praise for own cg.. n now whole thing! without God, i am nth! =) still got to improve e flow.. but i believe i can do it thru e anointing! n i began to start doing follow-up again le.. after so long long time.. so got to build up stronger myself le!

willingness and obedience is totally 2 diff thing.. u can be obedience but not willingly.. its not good.. being willing is an attitude which we have to learn.. when we serve, its really to serve God n not men! God promotes e faithful! have a good attitude of willingness!! =)

i just wanna put all my emotions onto e altar!... i wan to be focus..n not to be distracted!