haha here i am again! today had a tremendous svc and deliverance session! really awesome.. as usual woke up early to help queue up with some regular early-birds.. can see tt they're tired n sleepy.. yet they still made an effort to help queue up..! thank God for them! Rev Mike Connell came and he preached e word.. telling us bout demons.. ya lo true is tt only thru drawing power of God only den can we break forth the bondages! one got to let go and let God so e power can be released.. so here comes the ministering session after e svc.. i'm very excited for it.. some my members quite nervous n scare.. ya coz its their first time attending deliverance svc.. last yr felt like responding but i din.. i felt so regretted n wasted! so this time i knw there's bound to have some thing tt applies to me!

at e 1st altar call, i din response coz doesn't really applies much.. few of my members went down.. i jus help to make my cg members feel assured tt no need be afraid.. coz all my members there nv attend this kind svc b4!! at e 2nd altar call, i feel like vomiting.. i dun feel well.. told elaine bout it.. she encouraged me to go down.. i wanted to.. on e other hand i bring dear's cousin down first.. hers more serious.. den dear came down n pei her while i go get prayed for by e ministering team.. so elaine pei me.. so there's this sister who come pray for me.. i felt different e moment she speak.. i fell down.. i knew tt i'm struggling.. e sister kept demanding it to come out.. i started to cough n next thing b4 i knew.. i vomitted.. e sister kept praying for me.. she feels i've got this spirit of fear.. yup true lah.. n also i told her bout another area.. after tt i felt better.. i felt released in tt area.. really.. i'm happy.. as to spirit of fear i've got to pray regularly hard for myself.. thank God for e sister and also elaine!! she helped me hold e plastic bag.. n i did vomit bit on her hand.. so sorry.. but really thank God for her being there with me! =) sounds scary but actually its nt.. i nv expect myself to manifest.. God is good.. nw is my part is really pray n read e Word to keep my heart pure..

ytd cg meeting was great too~ i led games.. tink its quite fun.. haha but of coz some area i got to take note! e msg carrie shared was gd too! about valleys of darkness.. there's an end to every valley.. so jus persever n u'll see e light! its thru all these valleys where u learn maturity! u dun praise God when everything is going smoothly for u.. its when ur real faith is tested when u walking thru e dark valleys.. love e msg.. n yeah linus gave offering msg!! so proud of him! =) after tt few us went geylang eat dim sum n durian.. saw fireworks!! love it!! so nice!! yeah national day coming~ very excited for it!! i feel alot for s'pore sia..! really love it when see all of us s'poreans standing together feeling proud of our homeland..

miss e days in NPCC.. how i wish i can be part of e contingent marching in NDP.. i love this kind of thing de.. ya lah all e trainings n rehearsals sure very xiong de.. but i will feel enjoyment n satisfaction n happy after e real thing.. of coz i'm sure e friendship will sure be built there also de.. Thank God i've at least experienced this "one for all, all for one" spirit in my NPCC days.. miss e camping days.. miss OBS.. miss slping in e tent.. miss telling stories at night time.. miss campfire.. miss cooking maggie n canned food for my friends.. miss e unity.. miss marching with my squad.. miss e tough times together.. miss e punishments haha.. miss e friends.. miss e times.. really miss it~

3 more weeks to study week den exam le.. only got 2 papers for exam.. rest of 3 weeks hand up reports den will finish e module le sia.. this week will have ddct presentation n csas interview tests.. after tt can chiong reports den ok le! actually this semester really slack leh.. nth much lo haha.. nt so rushing at all.. only kwok fung will be presenting e ddct coz he's a very gd speaker.. he shall represent us haha.. no limit to how many mus present.. i'm confident for e interview.. haha.. jus ans wad e teacher ask lo.. tt time mock interview nt bad.. teacher said tt its impt to have confident n she commented i have it.. so after tt i'll be gg for SIP.. dunno where i'll be attached to.. but hor one ting i knw.. sure in e west area!! oh no... haha.. i live in e east sia.. dun wan tuas can laioz.. my teacher said i sure in research thingy de.. haha hope gt pay sia...~ pay for transport.. really need financial blessings too!

looking forward to start SIP!
looking forward to grace to come back!
looking forward to hang-out with my ka-kis!
looking forward to NDP! wan watch fireworks!

my cg is growing! yeah! n e members are growing too! haha.. carrie is officially our cgl le!! E409!! haha i typed wrongly for e songsheet sia.. "E402".. haha.. yeah i training myself to play guitar w/o having to see e chords.. for praise n worship.. =) training zy.. really need him to be faithful in little things.. he has e skills.. really hope he can rise up! =) fq also growing.. xiao yu etc.. n e rest too! oh ya keiko is back with us again!! bout 4 members fr jasmine's cg will join us.. wahh my cg getting bigger n bigger le =) me n xueting n dewen's cg went for e Big Groove.. haha fun neh.. alot pp wear until very hip hop! very nice! tink i shld get a cap! =) hee.. e dance steps quite chim lo.. haha.. 3 sets in just 2hrs.. e music so fast.. but we agar agar lah haha.. e hardest is e 3rd set!! i also blur at first.. but after tt try catch up! like lynn's cap.. she cute sia.. with e cap.. haha.. my cutie pie.. oh yeah FOP n 17th anniversary coming! time really flies lehz.. still can rem last yr got to usher here n there for e event.. so many many pp! den e last day FOP went with grace, fuquan.. its when i really start get to knw them!

haha he has been very good to me lah.. tink he has been really compromising n patient with me.. i got to learn fr him sia haha.. he has given more than what i have given.. but really thank him for entering into my life lah.. at least there's someone behind supporting me when i'm down.. his sis n bro quite pretty n shuai de.. haha.. e niece n nephews also cutie sia.. my 8th uncle's baby 1 month le.. his name is nicholas.. nice..i like.. hee.. i love my cousins they all.. seen them fr small to big.. haha.. love ah xiang.. v shuai.. eyes very pretty.. super playful lo.. rest also ruBBish alot haha.. jus feel so sad for my er jie and jin qiang.. i wanted to help them.. hmm.. i'll tink of some way..

ok lah end here.. long entry hee

byebye!

here to blog again.. bout one week nv blog le.. of coz alot things haven taken place within this short period of time.. World Cup fever is over~ Italy won! haha pp said tt its my country.. but hor i supported France leh.. went to watch e finals at e field beside TM.. there's a big screen specially to show e finals de.. i went with him.. ya lo quite late sia.. 2am den start! sun after svc n pm went home to slp! wah i needed tt.. very sleepy n bit tired.. coz slept late n woke up early.. jus e 2 hrs slp was quite enough.. so 10plus meet him go ktv sing song.. quite shiok yeah.. sang for 2hrs.. we reject e song b4 e song ends so tt we have more time to sing others.. e strawberry snowshake there is fabulous~ we went bedok 85 eat bit den go watch e finals le..

it was really crowded man.. alot pp at e mac too! when we got there, pp suddenly cheered.. i thot goal sia.. but actually e game was jus announced started.. we squeezed in between holes among e crowd.. coz it was raining previously. e ground was wet.. we jus sit anyway.. dun care ah haha.. good leh.. i like being in e crowds.. very exciting coz got e qi fen one.. haha.. quite memorable time for me.. den suddenly rain sia.. but ok lah stayed till e World Cup Champion is out! France lost.. starting i quite upset.. bit feel like crying one.. haha.. but held back.. emotional sia.. really feel for France..

haha e week was quite xiong for me.. got to study, rush project n have pm, visitations etc etc.. for consecutive nights have been settling dinner out.. got to plan this n tt coz tis evangelistic time.. leaders went to taiwan.. so we got to do sth ourselves to grow e cg.. me, elaine. linus n rest.. working hard! for past few days slept quite late.. its only after 12am den i can start doing my project n revision.. e visitations also far fr my house haha.. by e time reach home also late.. physically tired too! but next day recharge again le.. haha.. thank God this week is coming to an end.. so fast lo.. next week is another battle.. really alot quizzes n assignments to do.. n of coz visitations! really need strength n favour!

wah gg soon le... got other things to do le haha.. dun wan spend too much time online hee. update soon!

yeah new layout.. done by my bro! i asked him to help me de.. haha.. i computer idiot one lo.. dunno wad's all e codes about.. also nt interested also.. i've uploaded e "TORN" song.. but my bro said sometimes have n sometimes dun have.. weird eh.. but i really really love e song!!

had BS today.. was quite sleepy in e beginning.. den my flu started le.. coz in air con room.. kana sore throat n flu again.. haiz.. dun like e feeling! BS was gd.. its bout discerning of e spirit! we put into practice with someone we doesn't know.. we got to discern into wad e person is gg thru.. Thank God tt i managed to do so! I feel that e person is struggling with blatant n hidden sins.. i told her to confess b4 e Lord.. n it turns out to be really e truth in e person's life.. i'm glad tt i've spoken a word to her! Praise God! seems scary but its not! sometimes u may try but its nt wad e person is gg thru.. its ok! at least u took e first step! Pastor told us to practise n we'll get better! ya lo.. really need to hear n be sensitive to the Holy Spirit!

had PM jus nw.. thanks for elaine, linus, xiao yu for praying for me for healing on me.. i need tt.. shared with linus things n we prayed together.. same thing to aim for!

yeah Italy won Germany!! haha sorry ah Germany fans...~ i did woke at 4 plus to watch awhile.. i tink italy passes e ball very well.. in e end i overslept n din make it for 8am lec!

later got France Vs Portugal! i wan France to win!! sorry cy~~ haha.. i will wake at 4plus again to watch! its gg to be exciting!!

Den finals i wanna France to win!! :P this i sure watch e whole match!! though its at 2am!

oh ya 10 july is e finals.. its also my mum's birthday!

nw alot events coming up for outreaches.. let's be excited! to bring revival!! bring friends over for e activities!! next week carrie will be gg to taiwan for emerge.. so we got to take ownership of e cg!

i wanna do alot things.. sometimes being a girl is very ma fan~! coz of ai mei~ actually also good coz no need be as xing ku as e guys.. haha i talking fei hua.. feeling bit cold.. shivering.. my flu gg start again liaoz!! haiyo.. ok end here.. maybe i go rest awhile so later can watch soccer!! =)

i wanna change blogskin le.. haha coz e i realise e space for pp to view e posting is very small.. i read also xin ku.. so still finding one tt i like.. plus i wanna put e "torn" song.. e song very long time ago.. i wanted to find it for a long time le.. jus tt i dunno e title or sang by who.. nw i found it liaoz.. so happy haha..

i wanna aim to jian fei by 3 more kg.. give me 2months.. tink can de.. as long as watch my diet n maintain jogging + swimming.. i lost quite alot weight during last sem holiday.. tt time i nv really exercise.. coz working.. den somehow my appetite wasn't gd.. nt easy hungry.. den when hungry, eat abit full liao.. maybe tt's hw i manage to shed those fats.. actually i'm used to exercising le coz it makes me feel gd n healthy.. i like.. wan to be fit n healthy.. nt very meant to jian fei de.. but quite happy tt i've returned to e weight in e past.. but wanna lose more to look better.. n also to pei he him! really believe and hope he can grow n train to bigger size!

wah another week is gone.. very fast sia.. i tink this yr realli flies.. july liaoz.. gg towards end of e year again.. i'm at e 2nd week of e 2nd term of e 1st semester of my 3rd year.. haha chim.. so i got back all my term test papers le.. i did well for BPT.. recomb surprisingly nt bad though i thot i might fail coz its hard.. TE so-so n can be better.. i din do well for ddct.. bit disappointed.. haha but tink can do better de lah.. projects stil doing fine.. deadlines is few weeks fr nw.. but every week mus get sth done.. i dun feel stress leh.. still holiday mood.. weird lehz.. like nth much to do one.. jus tt got to revise lah.. all my friends also same feeling as me.. hee..

seriously i like every single day.. other than mon n wed.. coz long hours in sch.. but hor mon night got superband! so still ok haha.. n wed got bs n can meet for dinner! so still alright.. haha contradicting.. rest of e days nt so bad.. leave sch early.. n can have programme at night! hee.. thu onwards i will start hanging out liao.. love fri, sat n sun!! fri very special to me coz its start of weekend.. love fri night!! sat got cg etc.. sun svc but most of time will go back earlier to rest..

i've cfm tt i'll be leaving usher.. have submitted e ministry form to carrie le.. so i'll focus more on cg le.. i wanna do more.. to minister, to teach.. tink i still need to learn to love pp more.. i wan to love my cg pp n friends n family.. so i need to increase my love for God so i can pour out this love to them.. i wanna be there for them.. i'm glad quite few will share things with me.. i wanna be somebody who can help them solve too! nt jus being a listener! let e wisdom of God fills me! pressing into their lives is nt easy.. into my leader's live is nt easy too! but i wanna do my best! i need to humble myself n put off every pride fr my heart.. pride is sth will lead to destruction in a person's life.. being a guitarist for so long.. i thank God for e skills n anointing.. but i need to increase this anointing day by day! we shld nv get satisfy with where we are nw! a wise person nv thinks tt he/she has learnt enough! so i need to press into God's presence more n be more sensitive in e atmosphere.. so tt i would flow with my leader too.. w/o vision, pp perish.. i thank God for e vision He has given to me.. so i jus wanna hold on to it; trusting tt as long as i dun give up, i'll be getting nearer to my vision.. sometimes really xin ku n discouraged but i dun wan give up!! jian chi dao di!! =)

haha my mum knew bout him liao.. ok lah its normal for her to ask things.. coz i'm still young n plus i'm a girl.. she's ok bout it lah haha.. some my relatives also knw liao.. news spread fast! nw still so far so gd for both of us.. last week carrie shared with us e sexual ladder.. so funny lo.. tink quite normal lah e things she shared.. ownself shld also knw de.. we learning roller blading! he quite gd leh.. i still scare.. dunno how to brake.. if e ground is in diff texture i so scare might fall.. but i wanna overcome.. aiyo i still got e phobia coz of e fall fr e past! we went watch superman! so long e show! 2hr plus.. nt very very nice lah.. okok only.. e effects quite fake.. oh ya bought a shirt for him.. i feel bit big for him.. but its e smallest size le.. actually looks ok if he wears another shirt inside.. went with kehui n jia xing to shop for it on fri.. jia xing is our model tt time haha!! jus feel like buying for him coz he spend quite abit on me.. so i shld do sth also! hope we get closer n to know each other better.. n really hope he can get a better job.. sth he likes, gd prospect n wun clash with cg, svc de.. tt would be e best! or unless he's promoted n fell in love in his current job haha..

i'm in sch typing everything.. got free time.. might as well jus update bit.. hee.. gg back lab only at 5pm.. today i fasting.. for breakthru for some pp etc.. wanna keep fasting a part of my daily life! ok lah stop here.. pretty long entry again haa.. bye!