hmm my house is in a very 'jiang' situation now.. my mum n bro quarrel.. i dun really know wad happened in e morning coz i was out.. i only know tt my bro asked $80 fr my mum to buy shoes.. my mum dun let n my bro not happy.. den they quarrel.. den when my bro reached home in e evening.. my mum out of no reason raised e thing again n scold n scream.. my bro also sian lah.. he diam diam.. i also diam diam.. i hate it when my mum talked bout finances thing.. i always dun haf enough for myself liao.. though got extra income fr work or tuition.. let alone my bro.. yes my bro is in a wrong.. but i tink my mum also shldn't say some things tt is so unfair to me n my bro.. i got agitated.. i tried not to open my mouth.. in case i got involved n made her even boil.. coz she dunno actually how much me n bro are struggling over e little income we had.. we din say anything lo.. since sec sch till now.. e amount i got is almost e same.. seriously i dun have enough myself at times.. coz outside food how much already.. transport leh.. free meh.. other expenses also.. so most of e times i would 'chong zi ji' when i got paid etc.. but got limit also lah.. so i just dun like when she raised this issue.. but still.. i'm glad i ren just now.. i'm glad i managed to keep my mouth shut..

yes still.. i must honour my parents.. i'm angry.. but i cannot allow it to cause myself to sin..
these few days.. e devil has been attacking me.. he is aiming at my weaknesses.. trying to pull me down.. i was cycling.. alot things running thru my mind.. bad thoughts.. but i did silently speak in tongues to myself.. i just tried to boost my spirit up.. i shall fight e good fight of faith.. with e sword of word of God.. he shall perish.. its true tt after my baptism.. e presence of God experienced is doubled.. but e level of spiritual attack is also doubled.. i'm nicole.. no longer e old me.. i'm stronger than ever.. nicole=having a victorious heart.. n tt's wad is in me now =) its not easy.. but i know i shall reign.. trimph.. rejoice in trials..

oh well i stayed at qian's house on tue.. tt night we ate zhu cao.. very full.. but nice.. she played msn.. while i did my own things.. bu zhi bu jue 2 plus am le.. went to sleep liao coz got to wake up early next morning.. yeah so we rushed ourselves to sch.. she's late.. i'm not haha.. she got orientation.. i got PBL learning thing.. den went to watch House of Wax with classmates.. hmm.. its er xin.. i watch liao very uneasy.. me n yvonne talked alot in e cinema.. plus we were both very disgusted by certain scenes.. i tink its e first time i dun wan to watch coz of er xin.. but ok lah very exciting sia.. haha.. at night dj gave free pizza to me, wei lin, cy.. at central park.. stayed there talk talk.. n eat.. yum~ but got a pizza quite awful.. i dunno wad flavour.. tricia came to meet me for guitar playing.. soon saw qian.. haha.. i stayed with tricia at e park till 2 am.. wow.. got police car patrolling.. we thought they gonna chase us out haha.. but no lah..

thanks for sharing with me so much things.. i know there's things i've got to initiate to do.. really thanks.. did help to lift my spirit even up.. i thank God for giving me e friends whom i can speak my heart out.. God is indeed a good God :)