wow.. how long i din blog liaoz.. suddenly i felt so unfamiliar here ha.. but maybe my this post is going to be long long again haha..

ladies n gentlemen.. let me announce something.. MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! =)

i'm super duper 'high' when i thought of this.. e joy inside me.. i tink i'm more excited now as compared to e times after last paper of O.. sounds kua zhang.. but its true.. wah this sem exam is really 'killing' me.. stressful.. tiring.. haha.. coz my papers not easy one.. coz sci mah.. den got to memorise n understanding alot alot of things.. if dunno n nv study.. tt's it liaoz.. yesterday had mgen paper.. got 2 essay questions in section B.. one is 20marks.. e other is 15 marks.. when i see it.. i very sian.. haha.. coz my hands very tired.. section A also got 9m, 10m, 13m questions.. den so many thinking questions.. but actually e 2 essay questions are easy.. just throw out everything memorised.. just tt got to write alot.. lucky i can still remember e concept..

we took alot time doing this paper.. unknowingly i was left with <1hr when doing e 20m.. 15m haven do.. alot pp also.. normally alot pp would have finished n left e room.. but this paper no leh.. at times i got to stretch my hands.. numb.. thank God tt my seats are always away fr e aircon.. if not i cannot think well if too cold.. finally i was done with e paper.. haha i was super happy.. coz everything is finally over.. for this paper rite.. i studied till 4am leh.. break record lo.. i've nv studied until so late b4 one.. first time.. O level also nv like tt.. den morning wake at 7plus to study again.. my head felt heavy coz packed with alot things ha.. really studied very hard for this sem exam.. n also.. i was affected by it.. first time so serious..

but actually God is good.. for sending pp to me during those days when i'm feeling weak n tired.. it is really at right time.. since sun.. i was totally hmm.. my mind starts to wander n feel like giving up things.. so mon morning had my fpath.. it was my worst subject all this while.. n e paper was hard.. at least to me.. totally discouraged to study for e later paper.. i need to talk.. i felt like having someone to be by my side.. i called yvonne.. den she need to leave.. so i just stayed to study with my other friends to study.. but i couldn't conc.. i still got sth in me to be released.. den just in time.. cy came.. she asked how was my paper.. i nv say much coz in front of my friends.. she knew sth was wrong.. so we went into another corner.. i din talk much.. i just broke down.. i just felt like revealing e true inside me.. i felt better.. but seriously needed somebody i'm comfortable with to be by my side.. cy stayed over to pei me study for my later paper.. went to design sch coz is quieter.. we prayed b4 we start.. ya i can conc le.. she just read newspaper n bible.. soon my paper is going to start.. cy pei me right until to my exam room.. wo hao gan dong.. haha.. e paper was ok lah..

but at night when i'm alone.. my mind wandered again.. haiyo.. i was seriously tinking to give up everything.. e msg tt i sent to cy was horrible plus terrible.. made her cried.. i cried too.. my heart aches tt time also.. haha drama huh.. but it makes me realized tt how much she really cares.. n so i made a promise tt i will hold on.. n yes i did.. all e while sth is still in me which burdens me.. on tue morning.. benny called me.. very timely.. haha.. she asked bout my paper.. i told her e truth.. starting i was still ok.. but until a point when i broke down again on e phone.. she was shocked.. i told her other things also.. her words lifted me up.. i was battling if go for pm not.. benny dun really wan me go coz scare i canot study finish.. but i just went.. i nv regret it.. i was very much ok again.. e fire.. everything.. i'm prepared to stand up again.. n benny gave me a card.. which touched me.. n also thank God for all other pp for their prayers.. somehow i know tt i'm protected.. n tt there're pp behind my back supporting me.. n here i am again..

i'm back spiritually n physically fit again.. just read a book.. saying tt some problems are processes tt God used working towards a breakthru.. n tt when we're losing hope.. its really e time we need faith-building pp to surround us.. true true.. like my experience.. i can have benny to look up to.. e pp we choose to surround with will affect our life one.. ya.. i'm glad tt i've chosen e path tt is best for me.. tt is.. to walk with God.. we draw closer to God thru experiences.. i was nv tt affected by my studies b4.. but i was tested n hit in this area n leading to other areas too.. really depleting my energy n hope.. i can say tt i really broke down during those days.. n my mind really invaded by e devil.. but i chose to control my mind now.. to stand firm.. having to pray n pray.. now e storm is over.. n i made it.. when get e exam result (but actually i admit i din work hard during normal sch days ha).. no matter how's e result like, i'm nv going to fall easily now.. my foundation has become firmer now!! n also at e same time must work harder in next sem le!!

*Cheers*
so guys.. remember tt when meet a problem.. dun tell urself how big is ur problem.. tell urself how big is ur God to solve e problem =)